With all the support groups I've attended, for example a group for people bereaved through suicide, I've met a fair few people who carry guilt.Originally Posted by Obs
A person carrying guilt can be anxious, depressed, thrill-seeking, even danger-persuing beyond rational reason. Some people are suicidal on account of the guilt they carry, and I've said:
There's a term that gets thrown around a lot: "The damage done by suicide". Nobody in the world will ever understand that term until they've seen it with their own eyes and felt it with their own hands. You won't know it til you smell it.If you feel guilt or shame about wrongs and harms you've done in the past, well that damage will be nothing compared to the damage you'll cause if you go and do that.
With that said, and try not to hate me for pushing this line toward you: If you do relapse, it's still better than suicide.
I've never met a longterm stable former-addict who didn't relapse at least twice. Find someone who's been clean for 20 years, and if he tells you that he never relapsed then there's only two possibidlities:
(1) He's lying or he can't remember
(2) He's an incredibly neurotic individual -- what we call a 'dry drunk' in Ireland
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