Replacement therapy for depression

[956Vette]

I keep letrozole on the shelf when I run gear if I have to pull the oh shit handle. I already have gyno, I ran to much dbol and test prop before I knew what I was doing. Endocrinologist said they are extremely small lumps and actually when I jump back on testosterone they disappear. Now I do have some man boobs from eating to much cheeseburgers and sleeping on the sofa but like I told you, major depressive disorder. I think a dumb ass would think I have gyno my Endo/mesomorph body will look at cheese and get fat. If you were to look at my older brother, two older sisters, father and family you’d be like “what the fuck happened to you” lol. They are giants compared to me and we don’t even break 6 feet.

Back to the topic. Yeah I hear you. But to be honest I miss pinning. I actually love the whole process of loading back the syringe, air raiding and injecting. The whole process is taboo and that alone gives me a rush.

I recovered from 300mg a week for 8 months with no proper safety protocol since some junky stole my shit at an Airbnb and I’ve been struggling with depression ever since.

Don’t get me wrong dude… I bottomed out… bad… when I got low testosterone my dick fucking turtled itself 24/7 it was embarrassing. I got skinny armed and looked like a blimp and was overly emotional. To put the icing on the cake I relapsed into alcoholism where alcoholism alone lowers testosterone and raises estrogen. It was bad. I looked like trash and the turtles penis was embarrassing not to mention ED.

Somehow my body made the switch. I think I was forced into a situation that pissed me off so bad that it triggered my testosterone to fire again. My dick still turtles but it’ll decide to hang out now sometimes and I’m not as bloated. Endocrinologist said apart from the healthy bioavailability and free testosterone levels that my sex hormone itself was bouncing back and that my brain reestablished a perfect mind body connection and told my penis and balls to start producing testosterone again. I could tell because times I went to the gym I’d pump up like a motherfucker and two weeks of a good diet and working out would start to sculpt my horseshoe triceps again. Fast recoveries, the sudden burst to want to rep to failure, getting horny after leg days. I got lucky. I made a recovery where some men would be fucked for life.

But to be honest man. Yeah I don’t want a mass monster Mr. Olympia body, although I will say I LOVE Dorian Yates Tricep pose, I should get a poster of it and use it as motivation everyday. But I won’t lie. I want a V taper and traps that buldge out of your delts. I want my tits back. Naturally I can grow huge pecs and would love to see how big they get on heavy cycles. My damn forearms and I want my butt back.

Sure yeah maybe I could do it naturally. But I’m also at a point in life where I love the lifestyle enough to make the commitment and risk factor.

Life is short, how long would you be able(/willing) to afford a premium TRT clinic membership (w/ all the cross-sells, including extra bloodwork, anti-estrogen support & growth hormone)? Heart goes out to you, even if dishonest w/ your stats, lol. Please rule out self medicating upwards of a gram of testosterone with gyno present. Hope you continue to think on the subject this year and update the forum with good news sooner than later.

[Boostlag]

Life is short, how long would you be able(/willing) to afford a premium TRT clinic membership (w/ all the cross-sells, including extra bloodwork, anti-estrogen support & growth hormone)? Heart goes out to you, even if dishonest w/ your stats, lol. Please rule out self medicating upwards of a gram of testosterone with gyno present. Hope you continue to think on the subject this year and update the forum with good news sooner than later.

No gyno on 300mg didn’t need anti estrogens. On a cycle I wouldn’t dare. No I’m not lying and I have old friends who can confirm my figure and body shape prior to getting a crappy illness lol.

I’ve got a game plan but running a just prop 800mg week for an introduction back in would be what I would do AFTER my body fat is secured. I understand what you’re trying to do. It’s very common to do shake downs on new members and I’ve been part of it as well when I was active here years ago. It’s just a good way to make sure you in fact know what you’re getting into.