I knew this was coming 🤪

[Obs]

Damn, I. I hate to hear this, but let me say one thing. Stubbornness, the right meds, and cardiac rehab can remodel your heart in some cases ( and I was eligible to be worked up to be put on a transplant list). I'll never have the cardiovascular endurance I one had, but I'm still standing and it's been ~ 17 years

All of this is is coming from a man that at one time had a sub-12% ejection fraction and still I have the list of heart conditions listed in the picture below:
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Hang in there and if you want to talk, I'm still using Wickr or you can PM me here.

Edit: The left side of my heart is my problem. It's enlarged and floppy from viral myocarditis, but not as bad as it was when my ejection fraction was so low. I do the chemically induced stress test, too. They used to use dobutamine, but the last couple of times it was a different drug.

I still recall the first test. They started revving me up with the dobutamine and the cardiologist asked me how many heart attacks I had in the past. I was like "Ummm, none". The next thing I heard was the cardiologist telling them "Whoa, whoa.. ...bring him down, bring him down!".

On my way out the door one of the nurses said "I'd wish you luck, but it isn't good". I thought "Thanks, b!tch. You're a f-ing ray of sunshine".

I came home, saw some assholes had cut a window screen (it was slapping in the breeze), tried to break into my shop but couldn't get past the bars in the window, and tried to defeat my walk in door. I came on up to the house, took a prescribed Xanax, and poured myself a double.

Again, if you want to talk, you know how to find me.

I haven't forgot I still owe you a hundred bucks. I actually owe a lot of people after this past few years

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I haven't forgot I still owe you a hundred bucks. I actually owe a lot of people after this past few years

I have no idea what you're talking about.

[Obs]

I have no idea what you're talking about.

I don't have much wisdom but I hope everybody will remember this... Every single one of us has done shit and got away with it that should have wound Us in prison the rest of our lives.
We just didn't get caught.
I'm not talking about steroids.

Every one of us older guys has a fucking history a mile wide. I think the biggest fucking teddy bears I ever met were on this site.

I'm tired of hateful behavior from people I'm sick of it.

[Obs]

I'm at a very good friend of mine just after I got out of a psych ward. I was driving slow and I was talking to my girlfriend on the phone and I was all involved in what I was doing.
I had my windows down and I heard him yell fuck you what the fuck are you doing, behind me.

I did my typical shit I flipped out and I got out of my car thinking I'm going to kill this mother fucker.
I would have but before I got to him I started crying and I said I just got out of the psych ward I'm trying to get my shit together and I'm sorry.

He immediately jumped out of his truck and gave me a big fucking hug.

You don't ever know the kind of day someone's having.

I still got that guy's phone number and we shot golf together.

Be fucking nice because you're not going to prove shit you're just blood and water.