thanks Kawi

makes such a big difference when you have people who support you through all of this.
these last 3 weeks will be a challenge for me mentally. the physical portion of this prep was never a challenge, it was mostly psychological. this has nothing to do with food cravings, it more has to do with being awake til 2am some nights and thinking of why i am doing this and who will i become later in life. then only to be wide awake 3 hours later at 5am to get up and do cardio, only to think upon the subject more.
most of the time i think "what would it be like to be 'normal'?"....i think about that all the time....to be normal. i have a distinct thought that if i were to wake up 10 years from now and look like average joe i would more than likely take my own life.
to me i have never succesfully felt a sense of accomplishment until i began training for bodybuilding and placing good. that in itself is an accomplishment to me, purposely puttin myself through pain and mysery.
testing my psyche and bending n twisting it to see how far i can go until it snaps.
i just hope that what im doing now in this sport will pay off in the future