Am I stupid?

[abokeef]

Ok guys, I'm at the begining of week four in my first cycle. My current stats is 186cm at 225 lb.
my cycle is
1-12 test e 500mg
1-12 eq 400mg
1-2 test p 100mg Eod
13-15 test p 100mg ed
10-15 winny 50 mg ed
15+ my pct
my starting stats was 213lb-215lb bf%??, and 4 months before I'was 240 at 25%bf. but those 4 months I worked my a*s off. Well, I've been traning for 3 yrs now, half of them was wasting time I guss. Bc I was doing wut people was doing lol.
my problem is sometime I feel stupid bc I feel that I shouldn't started that. sometimes, somehow i get motivited and feel good. for example I see my self in the mirorr and seeing some improvement. Anyway, I need you guys to tell me the truth If i'm doing good or I'm lying to myself and souldin't start that.
here are my currint pics

[DDDNTZ]

Not sure what the question is. You are not sure whether you should have started the cycle?

[eatit]

Arms aren't bad but the pecs could definately use some work. Not really sure what the question is either.

[LatinoPR]

Go dude go...dont stop,youre doing a good job,more work is wating for you,is up to you Bro...you need more work @ the GYM but DONT STOP...!!!

[abokeef]

Arms aren't bad but the pecs could definately use some work. Not really sure what the question is either.

Me too man. I don't know what's wrong with me. All what I no is that I'm depressed.

[abokeef]

Go dude go...dont stop,youre doing a good job,more work is wating for you,is up to you Bro...you need more work @ the GYM but DONT STOP...!!!

Thank you man. I really work my a*s off the gym. OK here. Am I OKey to be doing this cycle??!!! Or, could I have done better natty??!! Everybody telling me I'm getting bigger..I think the problem with the drug. it's a side effect I suppose???

[MrMeathead]

Me too man. I don't know what's wrong with me. All what I no is that I'm depressed.

There is soo many people on this board that suffer from depression. You have alot better build than alot of steroid users I know. No need to be down. Were you depressed before starting your cycle?

[abokeef]

There is soo many people on this board that suffer from depression. You have alot better build than alot of steroid users I know. No need to be down. Were you depressed before starting your cycle?

Ohh no.. Also I'm being aggressive. Thank you man , u helped me alot.

[eatit]

I guess ****ing with your hormones might have a few of those effects eh?

[abokeef]

I guess ****ing with your hormones might have a few of those effects eh?

Yah man I suppose....!! Any way I'll keeb updating my pics through my cycle..

[abokeef]

Ok guys I'm still on my cycle. So far so good I suppose. Well 1 week ago I reduced my cals and start doing morning cordio.
I got a new dig cam but still did not use it yet. So, here is a pic with my cell's cam...
yah last week I wight 232lb.
hopfully I can get new pic's soon

[Natural1]

Definitely look thicker in the arms and shoulders. Need more pics for a better critique. But good work bro KEEP IT UP!

[Superballer]

Its all good man.... at least you're researching!! look good with a good base.

Stick to it!! It will be even tougher during PCT, so prepare yourself to just get through it and give yourself enough time off.

[Oki-Des]

Me too man. I don't know what's wrong with me. All what I no is that I'm depressed.

If you are depressed, I am not sure you should begin a cycle. I know that my personal mental state can change when on AAS and if you are already depressed you should be careful. Of course when you are on them, you may be happy, but we all know that you lose something when you stop. This is when the average person can feel some level of depression which is considered normal. Problems can start to arise when a depressed person takes AAS and then experiences AAS induced depression which may lead to a more serious condition or situation than you are in now. If you are looking for size because you are depressed I can see why AAS would seem like the answer. Just be careful because real depression is nothing to take lightly and neither is AAS.

[abokeef]

Its all good man.... at least you're researching!! look good with a good base.

Stick to it!! It will be even tougher during PCT, so prepare yourself to just get through it and give yourself enough time off.

Thanks man for the advice.....

[abokeef]

If you are depressed, I am not sure you should begin a cycle. I know that my personal mental state can change when on AAS and if you are already depressed you should be careful. Of course when you are on them, you may be happy, but we all know that you lose something when you stop. This is when the average person can feel some level of depression which is considered normal. Problems can start to arise when a depressed person takes AAS and then experiences AAS induced depression which may lead to a more serious condition or situation than you are in now. If you are looking for size because you are depressed I can see why AAS would seem like the answer. Just be careful because real depression is nothing to take lightly and neither is AAS.

Ohh man......Thanks anyway for your advice. But as I said I'm already in my 8th week and start lovin it. No problem now, all good, mental and physical are perfect.

[tinyguy2]

yeah but the problem is when you get off cycle all those feeling are gonig to come back probably worse because thats how all drugs work...if your depressed go see somebody about it...i did a couple years ago it helps alot...go bang some skanks that always makes me feel great.

[Njectable]

lot of gear for your first cycle bro, actually looks similar to what i'm planning on running for my next cycle, minus the EQ though.

[Njectable]

keep updating this though with pics if possible i would like to see how that cycle works out for u.

[abokeef]

keep updating this though with pics if possible i would like to see how that cycle works out for u.

I will man...hopfully this weekend i'll post more pics. and it would be the end of my 8th week.

[Testostack]

I guess ****ing with your hormones might have a few of those effects eh?

yep!

[abokeef]

keep updating this though with pics if possible i would like to see how that cycle works out for u.

Here is the updating pics as I promissed......
Also you can check out my diet and workout routine. in here:
http://forums.steroid.com/showthread.php?t=251501
Feel free to criticise,