I used to walk around in a nice lean 165-175lbs body.. At 5'10 and 7-8% BF I felt great..
I went into a deep depression when my now Ex Fiance left to go to a baby shower that her family was throwing for her in a different state. She had my son and I have been fighting ever since and have not yet seen him. My story has gone pretty public, though the judge ordered a gag order on me, I no longer can do interviews.
That said, I was 258lbs. last week, and have been put on anti-depressants for about 10 days now. As of Monday I now weigh 242lbs, so I lost about 15 so far with nothing more than just diet.
My life was extremely active for the most part, I was doing MMA at American Top Team and wasn't bad at it, I also rode my bike about 30 miles a day on an average. One month after she left and fighting with the legal system I no longer could maintain a steady diet, nor did I even care. I decided to just eat whatever I could whenever I could. I barley got out of bed everyday and just ate like an animal. I wouldn't eat until almost 2-3pm and what I ate was disgusting foods, such as subs, pizza, ice cream and whatever else I could gobble down.
I am now in a position that I cannot believe how fat I got. My family who used to come to me for advice is in complete and utter shock over how I look and who can blame them? I always used to kinda make fun of fat people because I never understood how they would allow them selves to get so big.. Now I am one of them and I still, even more, cannot understand it..
Its the worst feeling anyone could have, being this heavy and gaining so much weight in such little time really takes a toll on your body.. Doing the littlest things like walking 1 flight of stairs is exhilarating and I would be sore the next day just from doing that.
Since about 4 weeks ago when I decided I need to make a change, I tried to do a short bike ride, I took her down off the hooks, dusted her off and filled the tires up to spec, as I started to peddle down the street a spoke flew off the rim and started to clank around. I don't know if its because my bike hasn't seen street use in so long or just couldn't handle my fat ass, but I will tell you this! I cannot bike ride at this weight. Being so fat its hard for me to push the peddles down and carry this huge body, so I am thinking of going with the elliptical until I get to at least 220 or so?
That said, my diet has been super clean, I have been eating healthy for about 10 or so days and it follows like so:
8am::8-10 egg whites, sometimes 1 yolk, oatmeal no sugar.
11am:chicken breast, broccoli and brown rice
2pm:Chicken breast, broccoli
5pm:Shake
8pm: dinner such as lean turkey, chicken or a can or 2 of tuna with salsa.
10pm: Sometimes another shake before bed
Its how I stayed lean once before and seems to be shredding the weight in just a weeks time.
Now, I do have a couple questions as I am concerned.
People are telling me ( No pro's ) that if I lose weight to quickly I will gain it back, but being that my normal weight is 180-190 and it was my entire life, can this comment still hold true?
I really feel I will be able to get to 220 in no time, but I am not in any real rush, I just feel this will happen regardless because I think my body has been in misery and just wants to get rid of the weight

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Anyway that's my story for now and just wanted to vent a little.