I don't really know how to explain this. To me, it feels like, when you're using equipment to make big lifts, it's not nearly as satisfying.
I remember last year I was obsessed with squatting 5 plates (I was like 10 lb away from it), and a friend told me 'do just do it with a knee wraps and a suit bro, and you'll do it easily'. But I didn't do that, instead I kept working hard and some time after I did finally squat 5 plats. That was the best feeling in the world. It would have felt much less good if I had simply put on some equipment and done it with that.
Can anyone relate?