im an emotional wreck??

**naz-uk** · 06-26-2006, 04:36 PM

second cycle, doing 150mg prop eod, in my 4th week going good. first cycle was 500mg test e for 10 weeks!

ok ive never ever been an emotional person but since my cycle ive been crying over everything and anything, mainly to do with my relationship and its messing me up, is this a normal cause for test? will taking nolva help with this, its the only anti e i have (im just assuming this is sumfin to do with estrogen cos i cry like a bitch)

thanks. tony.

**mkrulic** · 06-26-2006, 04:42 PM

your test levels might be fluxuating too much. how would you feel about ed shots at 75mg? that might help

**naz-uk** · 06-26-2006, 04:44 PM

i guess i wouldnt mind doing that too much, i dont rely get any pain anymore from the prop, but how likely is this to be the problem? is there any other posibilites?

**taiotosh7** · 06-26-2006, 04:56 PM

I feel you buddy, I was on the same ride my first cycle.....I would say yes, your hormone use deffinitely plays a role in your relationship. Depending on how bad it is you gotta weigh the difference bro, don't lose something good for selfish reasons....at the end of my cycle I was a wreck which I blame on the clomid cuz it makes me feel the same way every time I ran it.....I was myself and then again I wasn't, hormones sure do fluctuate your mood

**mkrulic** · 06-26-2006, 04:58 PM

Originally Posted by naz-uk

i guess i wouldnt mind doing that too much, i dont rely get any pain anymore from the prop, but how likely is this to be the problem? is there any other posibilites?

yea that would help.

**test=magic** · 06-26-2006, 05:20 PM

def...a side from the juicy juice.....many people have been where u are .....just talk urself through whatever emotional problem ur having and tell urself its the juice theres no reason for me to act like this normally.....or if u want bump the dosage down to 300 mg a week

**naz-uk** · 06-26-2006, 05:27 PM

well its even harder now since just this week its come to the end of a 2 and a half year relationship, and it this was my first ever real long term one. do you think maybe i should just stop cycle, cause im having real trouble coping as it is?

**taiotosh7** · 06-26-2006, 05:29 PM

Do you think your break up or relationship problems are related to your usage in any way? Do you think you have acted different and or made different decisions than usual due to aas?

**naz-uk** · 06-26-2006, 05:32 PM

no these problems have been happening for months, the juice mite not of helped but the final result was always inevitable, i just feel that my emotions are messed up as it is and being on the test is only going to make things a whole lot harder for me, or am i wrong?

**test=magic** · 06-26-2006, 05:39 PM

whoa bro, whoa bro........i hope she didnt do u dirty....and its one of those i need space bullshits.....if it was meant to be then it will happen....if not take urself a little vaca to puerto rico in the carribean and find urself a hot latin woman .....easier said than done....but there plenty of girls in the world if shes not houswife mother material....forget it....if u could picture her being a good mother then it will happen .....good luck

**naz-uk** · 06-26-2006, 05:47 PM

thanks for the input dude.

well i really thought she was the one, but people change and i guess you just got to live with it

**taiotosh7** · 06-26-2006, 06:02 PM

I hear that, whenever something happens in my life while I'm "on" I always ask myself "do I feel like this cuz I'm jucing?" Well whatever happened I'm sorry for you.....Love is a choice man, you gotta choose wether you are going to love this woman or not....."that feeling" that love creates comes and goes just like happiness and sadness do, but love is a choice brotha. If it's worth it then work things out

**Brent_G** · 06-26-2006, 06:33 PM

From what im hearing it sounds mostly that aas just intensifies all emotions in general. Weather its well being.. depressed.. angry.. happy etc. It just makes them that much more intense. I bet alot of it is the juice.. BUT. I know breakups are hard. Especially when its been a decent amount of time. Then life just changes and its easy to freak out. Just hang out with buddies and get yourself adjusted to the single life.

Buddies help me whenever im in need

**TheSentinal** · 06-26-2006, 08:12 PM

Originally Posted by naz-uk

no these problems have been happening for months, the juice mite not of helped but the final result was always inevitable, i just feel that my emotions are messed up as it is and being on the test is only going to make things a whole lot harder for me, or am i wrong?

You are wrong. Test will make you feel better and look better. Get on your anti-e so your estrogen levels stay down. Why do you think HRTs are so popular? Take your negativity into the gym and crank out more reps and heavier weight. You said yourself you could see this coming. Get your mental thoughts cleared out and move on. Work harder, look better and move on.

**stayinstacked** · 06-26-2006, 08:22 PM

First off, how long did you stay off after your first cycle, and did you do proper PCT? Ok next, are you sure your test prop is legit? If anything your 4th wk into a prop cycle should have you feeling pretty good, and increased estrogen levels shouldnt be that much of a problem right now if the shit is real. My guess is your shit is bunk and/or super underdosed and your still recovering from your first cycle, just a possibility. Also, how is your diet, are you eating enough food? Some people dont eat when they get depressed and that may make you feel this way.

**Moe-mentum** · 06-26-2006, 08:32 PM

It all depends.
You are aware that coming out of a 2 and a half year relationship is going to mess with you.
I wouldn't try to avoid it.
Deal with it.
Set aside some time to really go down inside yourself and experience these emotions, ya it might be tough, but if you specifically set aside some time to "go in" and get to know your self you will come out stronger.
Allow yourself to experience whatever it is FULLY....accept it fully, and when your ready, allow yourself to "let it go".
It may not happen the first time, but it will come.
Because, really, your only afraid of the emotions you are, or may feel.
Spend maybe 20 minutes each day initialy, just dont dwell on it24/7.
Know that this too shall pass.
Because as sure as shit it will.
Might take a month, might take 6 months, but it will pass.
Only you know if the feelings you have inside are right in whether or not to pursue her, and it also depends on why your breaking up.
I hate to say it, but if you feel like you have to chase her, then the realtionship is obviously out of balance and I'm guessing she may have the power in this situation.

You are going to learn something VERY valuable from this relaitonship.
Keep in mind that people come into our lives to teach us lessons.

You will come out of this a better, stronger and more balanced person if you are able to extract the lesons from it.
Making you much more attractive for an even healthier and beneficial relationship to come.
The next few months are going to take a little intro spection from the sounds of it.

As for the cycle, I would stay on, re-set moderately meaningful goals, hang out with friends,etc.
Because until you can honestly come back into the relationship with the person you are talking about balanced and in control of your own emotions, it wont work and is not healthy for either of you.

She does not want that emotional control over you, and I'm sure you dont want her having that much emotional control over you.
Time to take a step back, relax, and reasses whats really important to you and what you really want in a partner.

Your gonna be fine.
Men have gone through this since forever.
You have some maturing to do in this area, as most of us do.
You'll be fine.

I'm a little all over the place but hoping you understand a little of what I'm saying.
I'm not an expert but I have spent some time on this area.

Keep kickin ass.
And good luck with what ever you do.

**naz-uk** · 06-27-2006, 04:29 AM

thanks for the advice guys all taken in and will definitely try and use it. the relationship is out of my hands as she is going through issues at the moment and is having trouble coping with life in general. i guess thats what makes it hardest is that i have no control and theres nothing i can do myself to change the situation, she accepts no help on any level and ive tried and tried, and i cant run 24/7 after her.

as far as cycle im going to drop the 150mg eod to 75mg ed and start nolva at 10mg ed? sounds ok? the stuff is definitely legit from good lab.. its bd and verified.

**RobbieG** · 06-27-2006, 07:38 AM

I really hate clomid, made my cry over tv.. and Im NOT that kind a person ..
I don´t even feel anything on nolva, just great..

dump the clomid, use nolva and proviron ..