I going to sounds like an idiot here but here it goes.

I'm 6'1"
200 lb
6% bf

I knew nothing about anavar and decided it would be beneficial if I took a small dose. I was 180 pounds at the time and figured I could use a little boost to get some weight. I didn't want to take steroids but was talked into it. So I took 10mg liquid form of anavar daily for 6 weeks. My libido raised and I got a bigger and stronger. But after I stopped, I got weaker (obviously), so I wanted more. Got more and took 20mg doses for 2 weeks. No changes. After everything, my balls stayed the same, my weight went up, strength went down, and I wish I wouldn't have taken anavar.
Obviously I knew nothing about cycling correctly, pct, or adding a test with it. So my question is, Did I **** up my test levels forever? Or will they go back to normal after a period of time?