2PEAS and 1CARROT please help!

[Ghbruinedmylife]

Please help me

3 years ago my brothers friend got me hooked on ghb and steroids behind my brothers back. I was addicted to ghb everyday for 2 years. The withdrawals were almost too much, to the point where i didn't want to live anymore. Everyday for the last year I went through constant anxiety and panic attacks. I fought through that one but now I'm battling steroids. I've done 3 cycles on my forth. First 3 were in the 4 month range 500mg and missed a lot of adex doses leading me to currently using letro at 2.5mg per day. Don't know If I need that much the lumps are the size of a quater. I've been on for 8 months this time with no hcg as I've just recently researched and found out I'm screwed. At the moment I'm planning a pct for 2 months with clomid 100mg/day & novadex 20mg/day after my letro is finished. I'm wondering if that's a good idea, & also if hcg is too late. Or would it still be beneficial to run with my letro? Please do not comment to make me feel stupid. I was misguided by someone who clearly has no education on steroids. All the cycles I've run and everything I took were from someone I looked up too and trusted. I'd appreciate any advice as the stress of my natty test ever coming back is seriously worrying me need help bad guys, I already have anxiety disorder from my ghb abuse. Any advice for the sake of my raisins. Please and Thankyou my balls depend on it.

[derekkpapa1]

Go to a low t clinic now.
And on the way after you pass go and collect $200 stop at boardwalk and see a psychologist.

[kelkel]

With what seems an addictive personality I agree with the above. You should speak to someone. In the meantime, read Austinites Educational Articles Database at the top of this forum. Particularly the PCT and Gyno ones.

[Ghbruinedmylife]

Well I've managed to stop using ghb. And after my pct I don't plan on doing a cycle until I have gotten proper blood work done on my t levels. This isn't about addiction i was misguided from someone who knew nothing about steroids and wanted to make money off me.

[Ghbruinedmylife]

And I've read tons and tons to the point where I'm so confused. Everywhere there's something different. Can't find any info on my situation because it's that complicated apparently. Could someone please just let me know if hcg is worth it or not at this point. And regarding my pct plan nova20mg/day clomid100mg/day for 2 months. Please and Thankyou

[derekkpapa1]

You just need to step back and look at the big picture.
Do want to live a long healthy life?
What's the end game with your body after you keep ABUSING these compounds?
Stop everything and seek professional help.

[derekkpapa1]

And I've read tons and tons to the point where I'm so confused. Everywhere there's something different. Can't find any info on my situation because it's that complicated apparently. Could someone please just let me know if hcg is worth it or not at this point. And regarding my pct plan nova20mg/day clomid100mg/day for 2 months. Please and Thankyou

Stop taking everything start pct

[Ghbruinedmylife]

Clearly I've misused them. I understand that and my pct and low test is gonna be my punishment for years to come. So instead of lecturing me about my addictions, could I get a pct plan pretty please. I can clearly quit by self I'm pretty sure I mentioned my ghb addiction everyday for 2 years. Managed to quit that. I totally understand your point of view. Let's just say I learned my lesson. I care about my body. And I need a proper pct not a psychologist

[MuscleInk]

Clearly I've misused them. I understand that and my pct and low test is gonna be my punishment for years to come. So instead of lecturing me about my addictions, could I get a pct plan pretty please. I can clearly quit by self I'm pretty sure I mentioned my ghb addiction everyday for 2 years. Managed to quit that. I totally understand your point of view. Let's just say I learned my lesson. I care about my body. And I need a proper pct not a psychologist

Read the threads suggested. You need to learn for yourself. Depending on other people is what got you in to this mess. Read the threads. Develop a plan and post it for comments. Take responsibility.

[derekkpapa1]

When is the last time you took something and the amount and what was it?

[Ghbruinedmylife]

I take weekly of 500 mgs, that was 5 days ago

[MuscleInk]

I take weekly of 500 mgs, that was 5 days ago

Stick to this thread. Do not start others. Starting threads isn't going to get you any faster answers. Recommendations have been offered. It's time YOU start making the right decisions. A good place to begin is in the threads recommended to you in this thread.

[derekkpapa1]

Stop everything as stated above run pct and pray to the Holy father.

[Ghbruinedmylife]

And I've already read for the last weeks and I have not found a situation similar where they have done as much damage as I have. So to me if can't rely on those Pcts they could not be strong enough to get my natty test production back. As well as my life .. And as for the other post just skip it bro I re worded my thread to cut down on certain details of my life that maybe ppl didn't wanna take the time to read

[kelkel]

Here's the link:

http://forums.steroid.com/anabolic-s...-database.html

Read the two I suggested above. And good luck.

[jimmyinkedup]

And I've already read for the last weeks and I have not found a situation similar where they have done as much damage as I have. So to me if can't rely on those Pcts they could not be strong enough to get my natty test production back. As well as my life .. And as for the other post just skip it bro I re worded my thread to cut down on certain details of my life that maybe ppl didn't wanna take the time to read

STFU- Get some humility, follow some direction and take responsibility for not only your addictions (ie ny brother's friend GOT ME addicted) but your physical recovery. What do you think your unique and some steroid pioneer? That no one has ever done what you have? Wost case EVER? Stop talking shit, read as directed and follow the direction in the readings.

[Ghbruinedmylife]

A dealer will hustle you and say anything to get your money. I didn't expect it from a close friend and a bodybuilder I looked up too. But of course it's all my fault and responsibility

[Ghbruinedmylife]

Thanks everyone the advice is very much appreciated