Stopped after 1st pin

**SexyTruckDriver** · 09-26-2017, 09:18 AM

So I started a cycle just yesterday. Was planning on doing test e 500mg weekly for 12 weeks. 1st injection went fine other than some pip in my quads. But later that day when it came to sleeping I started thinking and worrying because of all the things I read about roids. And yes I did proper research and know the risks of aas but didnt care until I actually injected it into myself. Last night I couldnt even sleep from the fear of aas use. So I plan to stop right now and never use aas(for now at least). Relized I'm not no where near mentally prepared for it. So even though everybody here told me to avoid aas at my age I procedded to pin regardless. Now I gotta throw away 3 vials of test, clomid, novla, adex, and hcg . Wish I woulda listen to yall and never wasted 400 bucks on this shit. So to everybody here around my age looking to do a cycle. Dont, save your money and your health and train naturally.

**kelkel** · 09-26-2017, 09:32 AM

You'll be fine after just one pin. And yes, you do have to be mentally prepared for this journey. Just don't throw away your gear just yet. It'll be fine for years. Store it somewhere cool and dark just in case.

**Obs** · 09-26-2017, 12:27 PM

Originally Posted by SexyTruckDriver

So I started a cycle just yesterday. Was planning on doing test e 500mg weekly for 12 weeks. 1st injection went fine other than some pip in my quads. But later that day when it came to sleeping I started thinking and worrying because of all the things I read about roids. And yes I did proper research and know the risks of aas but didnt care until I actually injected it into myself. Last night I couldnt even sleep from the fear of aas use. So I plan to stop right now and never use aas(for now at least). Relized I'm not no where near mentally prepared for it. So even though everybody here told me to avoid aas at my age I procedded to pin regardless. Now I gotta throw away 3 vials of test, clomid, novla, adex, and hcg. Wish I woulda listen to yall and never wasted 400 bucks on this shit. So to everybody here around my age looking to do a cycle. Dont, save your money and your health and train naturally.

I cycled young and did not care that I was not mentally prepared but I managed to stay out of trouble. Apparently I had angels circling. Severe sudden tragedy in my family ended that for many years. My attention had to be placed elsewhere.

On the mental aspect side and what mental changes it can cause though, I have learned very well how to control any mental sides. High test or other aas gives a guy a confidence, pump, and gives me a drive. I make it this way. It took me a while to understand I had to keep myself in check at all times. With great power comes great responsibility. It was not in me to walk away from any sort of confrontation at any time. I would pursue it, chase it down, and try to flush it out into the open.

Control boils down to converting emotion into willpower. Learning to act rather than react. I can think of many individuals I could have knocked for a loop and in the end I would have been the dumbass loser in prison.

Anyone with or without AAS needs a release and they need to be able to channel their stored up shit into that release as often as possible. It needs to be a good release and something that fits the individual in a healthy way. I had a self destructive path lined up for me ith a trail of booze and depression bordering on suicide.
I let my sadness and anger take over until I finally had a moment where I totally broke free from all the chains. I have talked about it many times on here so I wont bore everyone, but one night my pity party ended and it all just turned to pure hatred. Everything in me got channeled and released into pumping iron and bettering my life. I used my stored up shit to completely change my direction.

No more drinking myself to sleep, blaming others for my plight, or wallowing in sorrow. I am ten times what I was for it.

The mental aspects of gear are not quite what media makes it out to be. Roid rage boils down to an asshole who let his emotions get the best of him. Steroids aren't the cause of or the excuse for acting upon aggression. I quit smoking during a cycle with four compounds and had no problems at home or at work. My inner turmoil got released on the iron and my work, not people or myself.

I am glad you are waiting till you are old enough, as kel said, save it. Good job keeping yourself in check and stopping because you felt you weren't ready. Having a mind like that will get you far in this game on down the road. My immaturity didn't get me to the point you are at until I was thirty and I paid a heavy ass price for that. Good luck truckdriver.

**Heavyhitter5** · 09-26-2017, 12:42 PM

I think everybody thinks the same way your thinking when you do your very first cycle. really its just in your head and its not gonna be as negative as your thinking. your just thinking about it too much mentally being its your first time. I was the same way and then I blew up like a monster and all the negativity went away. its all in your head. steroids aren't for everyone though. just the crazy ones wanting to up the bar lol

**Obs** · 09-26-2017, 02:15 PM

But oooh... The tests that arise! A 6'4" stick figure just shook his head at me instead of politely asking if I could move my truck.

I didn't walk over to his vehicle and rip the window out and drag his ass out and slam him on the ground. I did not do that.

I just let it go. I let it go like a little blonde girl in a disney movie...
"I don't caaare what they're goooing to saaaay.... I could have turned his ass into haaay"

**TRA** · 09-26-2017, 02:32 PM

Originally Posted by SexyTruckDriver

So I started a cycle just yesterday. Was planning on doing test e 500mg weekly for 12 weeks. 1st injection went fine other than some pip in my quads. But later that day when it came to sleeping I started thinking and worrying because of all the things I read about roids. And yes I did proper research and know the risks of aas but didnt care until I actually injected it into myself. Last night I couldnt even sleep from the fear of aas use. So I plan to stop right now and never use aas(for now at least). Relized I'm not no where near mentally prepared for it. So even though everybody here told me to avoid aas at my age I procedded to pin regardless. Now I gotta throw away 3 vials of test, clomid, novla, adex, and hcg. Wish I woulda listen to yall and never wasted 400 bucks on this shit. So to everybody here around my age looking to do a cycle. Dont, save your money and your health and train naturally.

Nothing at all wrong with choosing not to run right now. Agree with kel in terms of holding on to things for a while. Otherwise I wouldn't give it a second thought other than maybe doing some research on lifting, AAS if you want, etc. Take the time to educate yourself on maximizing lifts, nutrition, anything else related.

**TRA** · 09-26-2017, 02:33 PM

Originally Posted by SexyTruckDriver

So I started a cycle just yesterday. Was planning on doing test e 500mg weekly for 12 weeks. 1st injection went fine other than some pip in my quads. But later that day when it came to sleeping I started thinking and worrying because of all the things I read about roids. And yes I did proper research and know the risks of aas but didnt care until I actually injected it into myself. Last night I couldnt even sleep from the fear of aas use. So I plan to stop right now and never use aas(for now at least). Relized I'm not no where near mentally prepared for it. So even though everybody here told me to avoid aas at my age I procedded to pin regardless. Now I gotta throw away 3 vials of test, clomid, novla, adex, and hcg. Wish I woulda listen to yall and never wasted 400 bucks on this shit. So to everybody here around my age looking to do a cycle. Dont, save your money and your health and train naturally.

Nothing at all wrong with choosing not to run right now. Agree with kel in terms of holding on to things for a while. Otherwise I wouldn't give it a second thought other than maybe doing some research on lifting, AAS if you want, etc. Take the time to educate yourself on maximizing lifts, nutrition, anything else related.

**Ashop** · 09-26-2017, 04:28 PM

Originally Posted by SexyTruckDriver

So I started a cycle just yesterday. Was planning on doing test e 500mg weekly for 12 weeks. 1st injection went fine other than some pip in my quads. But later that day when it came to sleeping I started thinking and worrying because of all the things I read about roids. And yes I did proper research and know the risks of aas but didnt care until I actually injected it into myself. Last night I couldnt even sleep from the fear of aas use. So I plan to stop right now and never use aas(for now at least). Relized I'm not no where near mentally prepared for it. So even though everybody here told me to avoid aas at my age I procedded to pin regardless. Now I gotta throw away 3 vials of test, clomid, novla, adex, and hcg. Wish I woulda listen to yall and never wasted 400 bucks on this shit. So to everybody here around my age looking to do a cycle. Dont, save your money and your health and train naturally.

PED use just isn't for everyone. You have to make that decision yourself and it sounds like you did whats best for you.

**Ashop** · 09-26-2017, 04:29 PM

Originally Posted by SexyTruckDriver

So I started a cycle just yesterday. Was planning on doing test e 500mg weekly for 12 weeks. 1st injection went fine other than some pip in my quads. But later that day when it came to sleeping I started thinking and worrying because of all the things I read about roids. And yes I did proper research and know the risks of aas but didnt care until I actually injected it into myself. Last night I couldnt even sleep from the fear of aas use. So I plan to stop right now and never use aas(for now at least). Relized I'm not no where near mentally prepared for it. So even though everybody here told me to avoid aas at my age I procedded to pin regardless. Now I gotta throw away 3 vials of test, clomid, novla, adex, and hcg. Wish I woulda listen to yall and never wasted 400 bucks on this shit. So to everybody here around my age looking to do a cycle. Dont, save your money and your health and train naturally.

PED use just isn't for everyone. You have to make that decision yourself and it sounds like you did whats best for you.

**xLoganx** · 09-27-2017, 04:19 PM

OP... good move and sense of maturity to make that decision. Usually you read the exact opposite on here.

Originally Posted by Obspowerstroke

But oooh... The tests that arise! A 6'4" stick figure just shook his head at me instead of politely asking if I could move my truck.

I didn't walk over to his vehicle and rip the window out and drag his ass out and slam him on the ground. I did not do that.

I just let it go. I let it go like a little blonde girl in a disney movie...
"I don't caaare what they're goooing to saaaay.... I could have turned his ass into haaay"

That's some FUUUUUNY Sh**!!!! LMAO!

**xLoganx** · 09-27-2017, 04:21 PM

OP... good move and sense of maturity to make that decision. Usually you read the exact opposite on here.

Originally Posted by Obspowerstroke

But oooh... The tests that arise! A 6'4" stick figure just shook his head at me instead of politely asking if I could move my truck.

I didn't walk over to his vehicle and rip the window out and drag his ass out and slam him on the ground. I did not do that.

I just let it go. I let it go like a little blonde girl in a disney movie...
"I don't caaare what they're goooing to saaaay.... I could have turned his ass into haaay"

That's some FUUUUUNY Sh**!!!! LMAO!

**Obs** · 09-27-2017, 05:34 PM

Originally Posted by xLoganx

OP... good move and sense of maturity to make that decision. Usually you read the exact opposite on here.

That's some FUUUUUNY Sh**!!!! LMAO!

You are looking thick btw brother. That tren is gonna turn you into a machine from hell.

**Obs** · 09-27-2017, 05:35 PM

Originally Posted by xLoganx

OP... good move and sense of maturity to make that decision. Usually you read the exact opposite on here.

That's some FUUUUUNY Sh**!!!! LMAO!

You are looking thick btw brother. That tren is gonna turn you into a machine from hell.

**xLoganx** · 09-28-2017, 05:15 AM

Originally Posted by Obspowerstroke

You are looking thick btw brother. That tren is gonna turn you into a machine from hell.

Thanks man! I feel like a kid going to Disney World.. I'm counting down the days to when I can start! LOL. Just waiting on my TRT Doc to call me to go get my 6 month bloodwork done and it's off to the races. This should be an interesting cycle for sure. Probably the best shape I've been in BEFORE a cycle.

Also.. glad I'm not the only one with the double posts?!? Sites been acting kinda funky when hitting "Post Reply".. been hanging up on me. Hope our IP's aren't getting jacked!! HAHA... joking!!

**xLoganx** · 09-28-2017, 05:44 AM

Originally Posted by Obspowerstroke

You are looking thick btw brother. That tren is gonna turn you into a machine from hell.

Thanks man! I feel like a kid going to Disney World.. I'm counting down the days to when I can start! LOL. Just waiting on my TRT Doc to call me to go get my 6 month bloodwork done and it's off to the races. This should be an interesting cycle for sure. Probably the best shape I've been in BEFORE a cycle.

Also.. glad I'm not the only one with the double posts?!? Sites been acting kinda funky when hitting "Post Reply".. been hanging up on me. Hope our IP's aren't getting jacked!! HAHA... joking!!