An honest journey

Dear reader,

Here is how I find myself thinking the other day.

"Ok, so there are only a few days until Christmas, why stay on point and then just break it on the 25th anyhow? Ohh, and then after that it's only a few days until New Years eve, might as well keep eating like a pig until then. Ahh, damn, then after that I have to move, ohh well, might as well just say **** IT and eat everything in sight."

It is exactly this kind pif thinking I have a problem with. I understand that reading this and doing so out loud makes it sound insane but why the hell can I not make my mind work the way I want it to? It is a truly frustrating experience to not being able to stay on point. I am thinking that the true test will come after the Holidays but why, why should I not have just 2 days of eating "normal" and after that stay on point. I seriously just want to slap myself and say, WTF are you doing? Get a damn grip man, there is a bigger picture here to keep in mind.

This is clearly just a post whining about my mental weakness but it is part of the journey, the one I have declared should be as honest as possible. I doubt I am the only one struggling with these type of problems but it will be interesting to see if I can get back to where I was.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
~T