Haha, I know exactly what you mean and it makes perfect sense
For your goals I guess an anavar only cycle could hopefully help you along. Like t-dogg suggested, 60mg/day is a good dose. I would run it for 6 weeks. The longer you run a cycle the longer you will be shutdown.
Getting those abs chiseled out is going to require diet and cardio however. There is no shortcut on that one. I would focus first on mass, then on cutting! Ideal would be to get to 95kg then cut down to 90kg @ 10%. Testosterone would be your best bet, it's a strong drug and much better than anavar only. To each his own and we will try to help you regardless of the tools you use.