Are Tranquilizers Holding Me Back ?

[pitweiler]

i was on the same meds for the same issues. like someone said, if you dont abuse them and take them as prescribed. you'll be fine. your sleep will eventually get better. mines not always the same but i never hold back in the gym. i always give it my all and sometimes it helps me sleep. (i usually train at night)

[pudgeball]

i was on the same meds for the same issues. like someone said, if you dont abuse them and take them as prescribed. you'll be fine. your sleep will eventually get better. mines not always the same but i never hold back in the gym. i always give it my all and sometimes it helps me sleep. (i usually train at night)

thanks for your optimistic input . Anyways. . . .

1mg of Xanax
2mg Klonopin
0.5mg Halcion (chlorinated xanax for sleep)

Isn't cutting it for sleep . Z-drugs like ambien are very weak to me , but I seem to have lowered anxiety from the benzos and Lexapro 5mg but not enough to where I don't give a fuck about my abusive awful college/family life and can just pass out like a normal fucking human being . I like bizzaro said, I really do love myself and want to better my self mentally and especially get huge and maybe with a flat belly one day in the gym . However this sleep non sense is crippling any chance I have at even the *thought* of running a cycle or , fuck just getting in some sort of shape .

Before all those pills , zyprexa 1.25mg was my go to . Perfect sleep , massive appetite (did gain quite the gut though), bench went from 225 for 12 with good form to 275 for 7 in just 4 weeks on a legal pro hormone called "xtreme DMZ". Problemo is that fast forward a year and I now need 20mgs of the maximum full blown schizophrenia dose to get some broken sleep , and I'm destroyed and pathetically useless the next day (and workouts of course suck) .

I'm going to ask the doctor to add in Lyrica because I heard it aids in anxiety and ptsd, and oh heavens I'll even ask for some seroquel (now I'm gonna be pregnant with triplets already at 260 and only benching 225 for 12, and deading 405 for 10. . . just in time for summer :/) I'm seeing the Dr. Today.

Please guys weigh in I feel like I'm trapped and up the creek here . . . .