What put me on TRT?Originally Posted by kelkel
When I was 21ish I did 1 cycle of sustanon for 12 weeks....with HCG the whole time, and PCT - everything by the book.
3 months post PCT, still shut down - tried another PCT, still didn't work.
What I didn't take into account at that time was that I was still on a "cut" during the PCT and after, and my macros were shit low....like 220 protein, 150 carb, 50f fat....and it had been an extensive while that I was on a deficit, and already post-cycle.....this may have been the reason why my levels were not bouncing back.
At the time it had been 6 months that I was in a low testo condition, and the "doctor" who I was seeing for it was at an anti-aging clinic.
He was (obviously) steering me towards TRT and saying that more than likely its not going to come back to normal.
My lack of knowledge and experience at the time, combined with having already been shutdown for 6 months and just feeling like shit, and not knowing the potential that my continued shutdown could have been a result of the continued caloric deficit, AND the doctor obviously pushing me towards his financially incentivized outcome - I decided to hop on TRT.
Fast forward about 1.5 years, I realized that I may have not had to go on at all (or maybe I really did). But at that point, 18 months of being on TRT - the damage was probably already done. I am debating going to another endo to ask his opinion on whether or not its possible to come off now after 3 years. I don't really care about the protocol, only thing that still worries me is fertility. I don't plan on having kids for at least another 5/10 years - if there is a scenario where I can still regain fertility by coming off - I would definitely do it, bank a shitload of sperm, and then go back on.
On the bright side.....telling my story to a few younger guys who wanted to hop on the gear did actually persuade them to wait or stay away altogether.
As for what I am doing all this for? Honestly its a good question that I am still trying to figure out the answer to....and the main reason why I am still not 100% sold on this 6 week blast. Alot of the insecurities that led me down the steroid path in the first place are long gone. I am already really strong and look great....I don't make any money off the fitness industry - so I am questioning myself why?
But part of me is also like - I want to take it one step further and see what I am capable of
But another part of me says - Maybe I should chill out and maintain/enjoy it now, and then go to the next level in 2019.
IDK....its a mindfuck sometimes.
Strength goals are a big driving factor though.
I want to be able to hit for 3RM:
OHP - 225 (Current: 200)
Deadlift - 515 (Current: 465)
Squat - 435 (Current: 375)
Front Squat - 405 (Current: 335)
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