Quote Originally Posted by ghettoboyd View Post
you may or may not know these things about me:

1. I to am colorblind but I do see color I just cant tell green from red and most things look brown to me depending on if it is under the light or not...


2. I love my wife of 20 years with all my heart I believe in soulmates and she is mine...


3. I feel like a failure as a father because I cant seem to communicate with my daughter anymore...she is seventeen and has every materialistic thing available on this earth yet she is never happy and always depressed...every conversation ends in a fight...I feel like I have lost her...I feel as if I have taught her nothing...I loose sleep at night because my brain wont shut down until I fix this but I cant...


4. I have not talked with my father in 17yrs...and it was 15 years before that I had not seen him or spoken to him...


5. i do not own any firearms nor do i hunt even though i live in a state rich with forests and game...
#3....
I fear my kids will resent me. I will spare you the stories but I promise you she will see all you have done for her. It's hard as fuck being a father. Being divorced they say its the kids that suffer most, but I disagree. They know I am there for them and love them as does their mother. It has gotten to the point I can't even enjoy my time with them without choking back tears the entire time. Something is always burning dads eyes, sun or allergies.

History will tell the story, only so much we can do. Just gotta do our best. It's hard to be the rock everyone pulls themself up on all the tim and then have to leave for a couple weeks. You learn to turn your emotions on and off like a switch and my gf wonders why I get so distant...

Love is pain.
Someone is getting a lot of love.