We're all depressed about our bodies in some ways, that's why we're on here. I know I am at times, quite often. Can't give you advice on what stack to use, but isn't there a benefit to waiting until you get the surgery to get bigger? Cycles are only temporary, anyway. Unless you do a cycle right before surgery, you'll probably shrink back down eventually if you're just on TRT.
I can tell you not everyone is, the day I started loving myself for what I am is the same day I unleashed the beast within. Conquering the mental side is the key to the physical side. I was so depressed in my life and lost everything on top of all the hell I went through then got dealt what at the time seemed like god taking a crap on me. An emergency surgery leaving me with a brutal scar on my stomach and my abs cut apart. It took a long time to recover but the scar turned into motivation and now I’m in the best shape of my life even my stomach looks great even with the scar. I’ve never enjoyed having my shirt off more than now. All I’m trying to say is you need to fix the mental side of things. Everything else will follow.