Time to get off, for a minute.

[almostgone]

Never thought I'd bed posting in this section. I'm getting off, finally, to try and get my girl pregnant. Neither one of us is getting younger and it's time to try and see what happens.

Last injection was the Friday before last, so the 9th of September... Been on TRT/steroids since August 2018 and ran HCG most of the time. Nuts shrank maybe 30% during this time. I haven't checked my LH/FSH but figured they are close to 0.

My protocol is a little different than most, and I'm working with what I have now, no doctor involved.

I'm running just HCG right now and tapering down from 500 units EOD (4 injections) > 400 > 300 > 200 > 100 > 50 > 0.

Right now I feel great but it hasn't been that long and I am taking HCG. I hope the landing won't be so bad, but we'll see.

Is adoption out of the question or are y'all holding that card for later on?

I have no experience with the process, costs, etc, just thought I would throw it out there.

Either way, Good luck, TM. Children just wasn't in the cards for the wife and I, so we just treat our dogs like "our children".

....and before anyone drops a hemorrhoid, I'm not comparing children to dogs, just stating our situation.

[Test Monsterone]

How long since your last test shot?

Shoot, my biggest concern is shitty weight gain. Muscle weight loss def doesn’t sound great either, but muscle has memory & imo you’d pump back up fast when back on roids.

Last shot was September 9th. I haven’t gained any fat as far as I can tell. Just lost some. Lost muscle fullness and size, too. Most of the weight came from my upper body. Its weird, but I feel I have better balance now. The center of gravity is no longer my head and shoulders lol.

Is adoption out of the question or are y'all holding that card for later on?

I have no experience with the process, costs, etc, just thought I would throw it out there.

Either way, Good luck, TM. Children just wasn't in the cards for the wife and I, so we just treat our dogs like "our children".

....and before anyone drops a hemorrhoid, I'm not comparing children to dogs, just stating our situation.

Thanks, AG. Having children terrifies me. My instinct is to run and never look back, but my conscience tells me otherwise. The woman I’m with is a saint and should have had children by now. For her I’m willing to try. I don’t think I’d want to adopt, but who knows down the line. I am letting nature take its course and seeing where things go. If I think too much about everything, I won’t do it, so I just do and not think.

I always said there’s enough of us in the world. Pets are not easy, either. The pets I had ended up with my ex, and for the better. We couldn’t separate them, and they are better there than here. I miss them, though. My cat Luna I got in 2011 when I was living in LA. I was walking into a grocery store and a little Mexican woman and her son had two cats they were giving away. They asked me if I would take them. I told them if they still have them when I come back out of the store, I will take one. That was my first real pet (not counting fish and parakeets when I was a kid). She’s still alive today, poor girl. I drove with her on the dashboard across the country.

Now I may end up with another cat. My parents had a stray cat that lived on their deck. They set up a little heated house for it and fed it every day. Only they could touch him, anyone else and it would run away. Every time they would go away the cat would disappear for a week or so and then return. This time after we went on our 3 week trip overseas, the cat never returned. They had it for 7 years. They were sad about the cat and talked about that and our other cat that my ex now has. So, I decided to get them a cat. Got the cutest little thing ever and surprised them with it after my mom's bday. They were in love. Now my dad called me and said they don’t want him anymore. Too much work, they don’t want a cat in the house, they want to travel, etc. Buyers remorse, though I bought it. Now I have to figure out what to do with the cat. If no one else wants him, I guess I’ll keep him.