First let me point out, i'm not big, don't want to be big, I just want to add some strength to my size. That can be gained naturally as well. Many seem to down Var as a weak steroid, but may be missing that I would rather have an athletic body than a bodybuilding one.
That's not my reasoning for wondering about different types of AAS. Obviously because of buldging discs and a shoulder problem I cannot workout nearly as hard as I would like to. Rest is what I need more than anything. My diet is not perfect, but good enough to hold my current weight of about 168 now I think it is.
At 34 I do realize i'm not getting any younger. Relying on Doctors and endocrinologists that really don't have the first clue about most of these compounds is a no go for me and i'm not putting how I feel in their hands any longer. They don't even know what to test for when it comes to finding the correct problem. For instance, a few months ago my total test was 796, but my free total was a bit under the normal level. Of course 796 is a good number at my age IMO anyway. However, the more I petaled on my stationary bike, the more my back began to hurt. Therefore my last total test had fallen to 633. Still not a bad number. Free test was not done.
Aggressiveness has been an issue for me over the last few years. I have to take several different meds for anxeity and one of them is known to cause this problem. Although i've always been a bit hot headed, it was never to the point that it is now which makes me wonder if that free test has dropped even more.
Money is also an issue, and while Anavar is expensive, it seems to be mild enough in smaller doses that it would be good for me because it does promote the collagen synthesis in the body, which could help a little bit with my back. Keep in mind I do realize that steroids are not my answer for a cure for my pain. What I am looking for is the following:
1.Something to help me to stay lean while i'm not able to workout as hard as before. (yes, diet I know. Diet for me is not a problem for me to get straight, but some fat still remains no matter what.
2. I plan on adding 3-5 grams of MSM to my daily supplements to help with inflammation.
3. Keeping as much strength as possible.
4. Right now I am limited to push-ups, dips, tricep and bicep work and close to wide pull-ups, but only with palms facing me because the shoulder feels like it will come right out of place and based on x-rays and MRI's i've had done, at some point it was dislocated. Because of this, I wouldn't want anything that would in any way dry out my joints.
5. I want to feel better overall. I don't feel like my quality of life is as good as it could be. I'm tired more often than I should be, my mood tends to be a little lower much of the time. Definitely not the happy person I once was, and I should be.. I have a great Wife and we have a baby coming in about 7 months. A lot to look forward to, but I still feel pretty dull.
6. Fat... I want some thing that is shown to help with fat loss, I mean who doesn't? Again though, i'm not looking to be big. That's great for some people, but it's not what I want. If I gained 10 solid lbs of lean muscle that would be fine and about all i'd want.
Based on this, give me some ideas for why Var might be good or might not be. If not, then give me some cycle ideas. Please do keep in mind that I have to keep prices down as much as I can for a while at least.