Need some positive reinforcment

[dedic8ed1]

Lately the combination of paying my bills and having nothing left at the end of the month unless I go in for 8hrs OT on every day off,having to borrow money just to keep my fridge stocked with the bare minimum and gas in my car has become more then stressful.Sure all people get stressed out with the responsibility of paying bills like a responsible individual but at this point there is little relief in site,things are so difficult for me as a result of my youthful exscuberance.My demeanor has become alot different towards people at work,and it's shown on my evaluation for the year.In the gym I'm normally all buisness but I also like to converse with the people I see everyday but lately I've been unnaproachable and that's not who I am.

So for the past three years I've been rebuilding my life with a good deal of success,I'm caught up on all my child support arrears,my credit is just about clear and ready to build that back up to a respectable level and this is the first year I'll be getting back my tax return.These are the only things that I can take comfort in while looking at the finiancial hardships I've brought upon myself.Now I wanna beat this depression I'm having but I want to do it without the assistance of my doctor perscribing meds like wellbutrin,paxil,etc,etc,.The sure vindicating acheivment of freeing myself from all the problems I caused with dilligence and hard work I'm confident will do this.I guess going to work for 21 days straight having no money for all my christams shopping and finally taking a day off has made me reach a boiling point.And without the positive reinforcement from others makes it all the more difficult,positive reinforcement from the rite people that is.

Nothing interests me other then the gym,my son and the prospect of being free of my mistakes and I'm so close to that but it seems like the closer I come to it the more difficult it gets.

I guess I just felt like venting a little bit cause I really have no one to confide in that matters to me who understands stuff like this.

"The most important lessons in life cannot be learned they must be lived"

[FREAK]

merry christmas bro

[auslifta]

keep your head up, sounds like your doing good. you will become a better person for fighting through the tough times. Keep working hard. Your not the first and certainly wont be the last to go through something like this.

[Lexed]

find a better job

[legobricks]

Merry Christmas and have a blessed one at that bro. Remember with all down sides there is an upside, you just have to keep holding on till you get it. I was financially broke for the past 5 weeks (not complaining) but i moved 1900 miles away from home and have no one so I kinda went thru some depression but things started to look up and i got back up on my feet. Just keep your head high bro and things will turn out!

[Dukkit]

im in the same boat. i wont get into my story cuz this is your thread. but i wish you the best bro. take it one step at a time. sounds like you have your goals set. now you just work towards them. ive been doing the same. making a goal...ex: get my drivers license back after 6 years...(i just got back 2 weeks ago!!) and then making a new goal. so hold your head high and youll see above the storm clouds.

[dedic8ed1]

find a better job

That's a good idea and one day I will but rite now taking a pay cut is not possible.

[dedic8ed1]

Thanks everyone keep it comin,I'm off to the gym.

[xero]

You wrote my story there dedic8ed1.

The financial strain, the impact on your demeanor at work and in general with people, nothing interests you, work-sleep-eat-gym nothing else. The frustration of not being able to change the situation and not being able to see a clear path to improve.

Sometimes I think that this is just a (very long) bottomed-out cycle in my life and that it will turn and improve. Cant get worse (and then it does). But seriously, all I can do is my best everyday to stay working hard, paying the bills, being responsible for my children, and living in hope that the cycle will turn sometime.

[goodcents]

Shlt welcome to my world, I work 7 days a week at my businesses and some times people at mcdonalds make more than I do I never know what I will make that day, up and downs. I haven't worked out in a few months , eating like shlt, my chics just want me for what I can give them(hey it is what it is))The stress make sme feel like shlt, probably have high blood pressure too. We ahd an ice storm that lasted over a week at the worst possable time and this season sucks since everyone is broke due to economy and high ass gas and heating costs.

[goodcents]

^Did that cheer you up?

[legobricks]

Shlt welcome to my world, I work 7 days a week at my businesses and some times people at mcdonalds make more than I do I never know what I will make that day, up and downs. I haven't worked out in a few months , eating like shlt, my chics just want me for what I can give them(hey it is what it is))The stress make sme feel like shlt, probably have high blood pressure too. We ahd an ice storm that lasted over a week at the worst possable time and this season sucks since everyone is broke due to economy and high ass gas and heating costs.

Cheered me up! LOL, give it to them raw and dirty!

[largerthannormal]

dont worry lego im cumin!!!

[goodcents]

Cheered me up! LOL, give it to them raw and dirty!

They don't want my dick just my money and the fact that I own a businessThey give me p u s s y to get the other

[legobricks]

They don't want my dick just my money and the fact that I own a businessThey give me p u s s y to get the other

Straight ballin bro!!!!!

[Dukkit]

pop tarts make me feel better

[legobricks]

Cake makes me feel better.

[dedic8ed1]

Cake makes me feel better.

I do find some love in my sundays.That's my high carb day and cranberry apple crumb pie offers some joy,and resse cups by the spoon fulls don't hurt either

[legobricks]

I do find some love in my sundays.That's my high carb day and cranberry apple crumb pie offers some joy,and resse cups by the spoon fulls don't hurt either

LOL! Yeah i hear ya. Personally ill eat some cake, find a good porno and have "Me" time.

[Amorphic]

good luck to you bro, you seem to definetly be on the right path and that in itself is an accomplishment. Keep your head up and keep working hard, good things will come to you soon.

[ottomaddox]

Keep your chin up, things always get stressful around the silly season.

[Dizz28]

I just drink when I feel depressed. Makes me feel better when I'm drunk and then the next day the severity of the hangover makes all other problems seem insignificant.

[Dukkit]

I just drink when I feel depressed. Makes me feel better when I'm drunk and then the next day the severity of the hangover makes all other problems seem insignificant.

X2.....

[dedic8ed1]

I just drink when I feel depressed. Makes me feel better when I'm drunk and then the next day the severity of the hangover makes all other problems seem insignificant.

Can't do that bro.

A little bit about me

[dedic8ed1]

LOL! Yeah i hear ya. Personally ill eat some cake, find a good porno and have "Me" time.

Sheeet bro my palms are chaffed

[Amorphic]

Can't do that bro.

A little bit about me

very inspiring story

[dedic8ed1]

very inspiring story

Thanks buddy,that was the hallmark for changing my life and it seems so long ago but the misery is unforgetable.

[facile]

hang in there, been there myself, I got laid off just as I got divorced, I moved back home with basically nothing and had a hard time finding work. The gym was the only thing that kept me sane.

Things always get better, sometimes it hard to believe that.

This time of year is always a bit more stressfull, it seems like I live week to week.
But I just visited my girlfriend mom in medical rehab and saw all the folks missing limbs and sick, and then I feel thankful for that I do have, and know that with work and dedication, I will make a better life for me and my family.

Stay focused and never give in.

[Mrs. Mavsluva]

Now this is my kind of thread! More money is not the answer to your problem. Because the more money you make, the higher your desires become. Because your wants are relative to your income. And believe it or not, your needs will become greater when more money becomes available.

Good luck,
Gina

[dedic8ed1]

Now this is my kind of thread! More money is not the answer to your problem. Because the more money you make, the higher your desires become. Because your wants are relative to your income. And believe it or not, your needs will become greater when more money becomes available.

Good luck,
Gina

Mrs. Mavsluva much respect but I'm not like that at all.Of course I do like nice things and still want to make more money to lead a more effective lifestyle but rite now
I actually just want to fill my fridge and my gas tank without having to borrow money every week,Put away some money each month for a down payment on a house and get my credit respectable enough to get a decent interest rate.I'm not big on toys or non sensical spending like partying,I work really hard and make ok money,I just want to feel better inside my head and my soul without the assistance of anyone or any substance but my own hard work and effort.This path I put myself on will make me appreciate everything I earn in life.At this point I feel it's one of gods great tests he feels I need to overcome to become a more respectable individual,a better man and the best father I can be for my son.I know you and your late husband god rest his soul were very involved in church so I don't want to act like I know anything about church but I feel this road is somewhat just apart of life.

[dedic8ed1]

I wanna thank everyone for there positive contributions to the thread.I just got called in for 8hrs OT so I'm off.Thanks guys