This Will Be My last Post

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You've been through a lot, <Samson>, I mean a lot and all at one time. When I had all of the cardiac issues ranging from viral myocarditis, a sub-12% ejection fraction, firing a cardiologist, getting a new cardiologist, pacemaker implantation, bacteremia, pacemaker removal, genetic clotting disorder, plus several other sideshows, it definitely fvcked with my head, but over a much longer period of time. You've had much more to process in a much shorter time.

It's just so much shit to process at one time that you feel like everything is just a horrible dream, other days I felt like I just wasn't me anymore. So, given the nature of your illness and surgery, I think you're handling everything very well. Even if you don't particularly feel stressed, there's stress going on in the background, which will make things seem downright bizarre.

Keep doing what you're doing and "Well done" on dropping the cigs and embracing the physical activity as allowed by your treatment team.