Bro, i also was in this mindset once when I was around your age and was stressing during the recovery period thinking omg I ruined my shit lol.

These kind of thoughts are common when you finish the cycle and your hernones tend to go out of wack.

You are still young and life is ahead of you; stay positive and everything will be just fine hopefully.

Everything needs time so just give it time.

Good luck with whatever you choose to do next.