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[Myka]

Is there nobody who's company you feel comfortable in in your dorm block, nobody you identify with?

absolutely not..every once in a while I will find some chick that is cool..but I just get tired of ppl so fast..and Ive never cared about anyone..so when I get tired of them I cant stand to be around them anymore and thats it

[Myka]

Well they can't all be gay, what course are you doing?

What about in the gym, nobody you speak to or socialise with from there?

You might be suprised...they all seem to be gay..and one or two that I wasnt sure about would always look down when I spoke to them...they talk back but dont look up..really weird..no there is no one in the gym..ppl just dont respond to me...even if I go to church..no one will make eye contact...I look and smile but everyone has their eyes on the exit...but thats the case no matter what...ppl look at me..and then when I look they look away real fast..

[NotSmall]

absolutely not..every once in a while I will find some chick that is cool..but I just get tired of ppl so fast..and Ive never cared about anyone..so when I get tired of them I cant stand to be around them anymore and thats it

Would you describe yourself as quite intolerant?

I am naturally very intolerant and a few years back when I went through some depression it made for a very bad combination.

[Myka]

Would you describe yourself as quite intolerant?

I am naturally very intolerant and a few years back when I went through some depression it made for a very bad combination.

yes probably..but I do try to talk to ppl...but they get upset...it really is strange how on this board ppl can discuss things and be okay...but in real life they will act like they dont know you if youre not attractive for the day..

[NotSmall]

You might be suprised...they all seem to be gay..and one or two that I wasnt sure about would always look down when I spoke to them...they talk back but dont look up..really weird..no there is no one in the gym..ppl just dont respond to me...even if I go to church..no one will make eye contact...I look and smile but everyone has their eyes on the exit...but thats the case no matter what...ppl look at me..and then when I look they look away real fast..

Judging from the above either you are a little paranoid (which for me always goes hand in hand with me feeling low) or your body language is projecting hostility, my best guess would be a bit of both.

[NotSmall]

yes probably..but I do try to talk to ppl...but they get upset...it really is strange how on this board ppl can discuss things and be okay...but in real life they will act like they dont know you if youre not attractive for the day..

Upset how? Are you quite assertive and forthright with your opinions?

[Myka]

Judging from the above either you are a little paranoid (which for me always goes hand in hand with me feeling low) or your body language is projecting hostility, my best guess would be a bit of both.

I suspected the hostility part...I honestly dont think I am paranoid though..this is something that I can erase when moving to a new place..and it just starts all over..I feel mellow most of the time though..ppl like to assume things though..I remember in High School ppl blatently told me that I looked like a psycho and that I was scary rofl...maybe I should wear more pink

[Myka]

Upset how? Are you quite assertive and forthright with your opinions?

yes I tell my opinions...but always in a calm way..and letting them know that I think their opinion is legitamite and I take them seriously...but they dont want to talk..its okay if they dont like me and dont want to talk..but they bring it up...I never start anything or push myself on ppl..I merely go off what they say..then if I dont immediately agree they get upset

[NotSmall]

I suspected the hostility part...I honestly dont think I am paranoid though..this is something that I can erase when moving to a new place..and it just starts all over..I feel mellow most of the time though..ppl like to assume things though..I remember in High School ppl blatently told me that I looked like a psycho and that I was scary rofl...maybe I should wear more pink

Some people do appear to have an aggressive expression when their face is relaxed, a guy I work with has a face that unless he is smiling or laughing makes him look constantly pissed off, he isn't but when he relaxes his face it does look that way.

yes I tell my opinions...but always in a calm way..and letting them know that I think their opinion is legitamite and I take them seriously...but they dont want to talk..its okay if they dont like me and dont want to talk..but they bring it up...I never start anything or push myself on ppl..I merely go off what they say..then if I dont immediately agree they get upset

When you say they get upset how do they show it?

[Myka]

When you say they get upset how do they show it?

they make frustrated noises while Im speaking..and cut me off..then say OKAY OKAY...like Im the one that started it

[Myka]

look at that shadow walking right behind me...charting every step I take...making every promise empty ...waiting like a stalking butler...who can I point the finger at?...Jesus wont you try and whistle something but whats past and done? why cant we be sober? I just want to start this over...why cant we drink forever? I just want to start this over

[Myka]

I am just a worthless liar...I am just an imbocile...I will only complicate you...trust in me and fall aswell...I will find a center in you..chew it up and leave...I will work to elevate you...just enough to bring you down

[NotSmall]

they make frustrated noises while Im speaking..and cut me off..then say OKAY OKAY...like Im the one that started it

Well that makes it sound as if you are being too forceful with your opinions but you say you are not and I have to say that you always seem very reasonable on here so maybe your facial expression does come across as more aggressive than you really are, that would explain why when you are merely being enthusiastic as you give your point of view it is being perceived as anger/aggression.

[Myka]

thats a nice way of saying Im ugly in a fashion...thats wonderful ..oh well..I guess its true because on days that I look good and I put effort in..I notice ppl are very nice and talkative..but then the next day if it isnt as good of a day then they will act like they never knew me...appearance is everything I guess..at least I still have AR *psychotic laugh*

[Myka]

notsmall you seem like a very thought out individual...do ppl exist like you anywhere else Is everyone reasonably logical outside the U.S.?

[NotSmall]

thats a nice way of saying Im ugly in a fashion...thats wonderful ..oh well..I guess its true because on days that I look good and I put effort in..I notice ppl are very nice and talkative..but then the next day if it isnt as good of a day then they will act like they never knew me...appearance is everything I guess..at least I still have AR *psychotic laugh*

LMAO! - That's not what I meant mate, it's pretty hard to interpret what the problem might be over the internet, that coupled with the fact that I don't know WTF I'm talking about!
Some people do tend to "wear their hearts on their sleeves" though, what I mean is if they are feeling pissed off it is much more visible on their face than with other people, so on those days when you don't feel like making an effort with your appearance is that because you are feeling crappy? if so it might be that people are picking up on it.

notsmall you seem like a very thought out individual...do ppl exist like you anywhere else Is everyone reasonably logical outside the U.S.?

Thanks! As far as I know I am a one off

Nah, just kidding, you're right it's just the US thats full of dummies!


(I'm joking, I'm joking)

[DamnYouMSN]

vr00m

[DamnYouMSN]

i start my finals tomorrow =(

[novastepp]

Myka, i love you man... and yeah...

[DamnYouMSN]

what school do you go to nova?

[novastepp]

IUPUI. it's in indianapolis. with all te hospitals around and the only IT program in the state....Hospital Administration sounds like a good choice

[Myka]

so notsmall youre saying I should just show confidence at all times...hmm yes..and if I dont feel good I should just fake it

[Myka]

nova what are you talking about indaniplolis...you live in indian apples

[NotSmall]

so notsmall youre saying I should just show confidence at all times...hmm yes..and if I dont feel good I should just fake it

You're probably best off ignoring my ramblings to be honest mate!

[AnabolicAndre]

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[RuhlFreak55]

yeah..I dont care if someone is homo although Im morally against it..but there are a lot of them around here..and they dont make the best friends to a hetero that works out

ROFL

[RuhlFreak55]

notsmall you seem like a very thought out individual...do ppl exist like you anywhere else Is everyone reasonably logical outside the U.S.?

.....case in point....crazy suicidal iraqis

[RuhlFreak55]

thats a nice way of saying Im ugly in a fashion...thats wonderful ..oh well..I guess its true because on days that I look good and I put effort in..I notice ppl are very nice and talkative..but then the next day if it isnt as good of a day then they will act like they never knew me...appearance is everything I guess..at least I still have AR *psychotic laugh*

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[RuhlFreak55]

jungle love

[AnabolicAndre]

david blaine is going to spend 7 days underwater...
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I hope he drowns

[RuhlFreak55]

why am i the only one posting......jungle love in the surf and the pouring rain...everything's better when wet

[AnabolicAndre]

junnnnnglle love my OH E OH E OHHHHHHH I think I wanna get to know ya know ya

[AnabolicAndre]

time to go to work later boys

[Myka]

I am a smooth talker

[Myka]

nova is my lover

[Myka]

know now that I am forever dirt

[Myka]

You're probably best off ignoring my ramblings to be honest mate!

haha...but atleast you were listening and talking to me

[Myka]

oh good Im totally alone once again

[the_rebirth]

85 outside at 10am!!! whoohoo better then crappy michigan

[QuieTSToRM33]

what up whores