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03-24-2009, 01:25 AM #139361
I know what you're saying.... People's history can be a reflection but I feel it can't be who they truly are. What I am saying is I am no longer a bad person with constant evil intentions of me me and me and fukk anyone.... I would LOVE to change my past BUT I can't and must live with the consequences and realize I may not be the same goal oriented person I am today with what I have learned through the good and the bad.
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03-24-2009, 01:26 AM #139362
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03-24-2009, 01:29 AM #139363
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03-24-2009, 01:30 AM #139364
wow we are a little off topic here i think?
Kats you still alive?
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03-24-2009, 01:31 AM #139365Stupid
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i'm here, just trying to let things soak in, i feel like i have lost myself and my values...
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03-24-2009, 01:33 AM #139366
No I think the topics applies perfect....
maybe my core beliefs never changed the whole time I was doing those things; was just confused and in a haze... didn't know what i truly wanted and was lashing out. until bodybuilding found me... I was blessed in finding something that could keep me so focused on every aspect of my lifestyle in order not to become that evil person I once was or was becoming.
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03-24-2009, 01:40 AM #139367
Does this apply to you Ernst...
Like to me and others being that bad person and the activity that goes along with it seemed cool and made you feel accepted. The media, music, etc paints mob like activities as "cool" or "thrilling"
After all the stuff that went down I got into weight training and wouldn't do anymore of those activities but would brag about them to make others think I'm cool or to get accepted... Maybe you think 'well I don't give a damn what people think' but deep down you do... I can see it in you. You are a good person ernst whether you think it or not... regardless of religion, politics, 'core beliefs' and all of that other crap we create
all that matters is what you leave behind.....
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03-24-2009, 01:40 AM #139368Stupid
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03-24-2009, 01:43 AM #139369
all this philosophy and psychology is making my head hurt.
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03-24-2009, 01:44 AM #139370
Well there is the first step
now you gotta develop a plan and stick with it young lady...
life is rough but sometimes what you need is someone to get real with you and show you the situation for what it is and not to sugar coat it so you can then fall back in that hole by making it seem not 'as bad'
the hardest thing is to be constant and to not waver.
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03-24-2009, 01:45 AM #139371
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03-24-2009, 01:47 AM #139372
^^^Kinda like a Ruhl
dont be a Ruhl kat
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03-24-2009, 01:48 AM #139373Stupid
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gee thanks guys
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03-24-2009, 01:48 AM #139374
It's a vicious cycle.
But it can be broken.
And just because I don't think people change doesn't mean I think they can't find a better part of themselves to bring out.
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03-24-2009, 01:48 AM #139375
it must suck to be a girl and have all those emotions and sh*t. pfff. emotions.
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03-24-2009, 01:49 AM #139376
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03-24-2009, 01:53 AM #139379Stupid
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i'm broken reed, there is no question about that.
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03-24-2009, 01:54 AM #139380Stupid
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don't expect anything, and i'll never talk about my personal life again either.
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03-24-2009, 01:54 AM #139381
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03-24-2009, 01:55 AM #139382Stupid
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goodnight
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03-24-2009, 01:55 AM #139383
What can we expect though Kat... thats all we have seen thus far...
comforting you and feeling sorry for you didn't work last time, so now your getting your butt kicked... Sometimes you gotta tear someone down in order to build them back up.
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03-24-2009, 01:59 AM #139384
Goodnight Kats.
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03-24-2009, 02:00 AM #139385
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03-24-2009, 02:03 AM #139386
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03-24-2009, 02:05 AM #139387
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03-24-2009, 02:06 AM #139388
Deep down I still think you look fat in those jeans. I just know better than to say so out loud.
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03-24-2009, 02:08 AM #139389
hahaha fvcker
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03-24-2009, 02:08 AM #139390
deep down you love me
i understand
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03-24-2009, 02:09 AM #139391
at least my farts dont smell like sewage
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03-24-2009, 02:12 AM #139392
Crap. I have my morning class tomorrow.
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03-24-2009, 02:13 AM #139393
had mine today.
what do you have?
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03-24-2009, 02:14 AM #139394
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03-24-2009, 02:21 AM #139395
Friends with benefits fails again.
Roomie and I had a big falling out. I guess she wanted more than what I'm willing/able to give emotionally or whatever. Now we fight like dogs and she's declared herself a born again lesbian because all of her ex's and I are apparently worthless bastards. I live with this chick so my drama free zone has totally been torched. She is no longer trying to impress and has become jealous and rude, is constantly baked, and just completely unpleasant to be around. Just peachy.
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03-24-2009, 02:21 AM #139396
I think a lot of the issues with you and most women in relationships of such can be stemmed from society as we mostly have the idea that women should be submissive. Also the desperation to be with any man for fear of being alone as some women think they may lose social status without being married or in a relationship. You aren't vulnerable without a man to protect you Kat.
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03-24-2009, 02:22 AM #139397
Goodnight Kat
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03-24-2009, 02:22 AM #139398
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03-24-2009, 02:27 AM #139399
ok going to try and fall asleep
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03-24-2009, 02:28 AM #139400
Just peachy is defined here as: jealous and rude, constantly baked, and just completely unpleasant to be around.
Apt! It's apt I tell you!
Alright. I should try to get some sleep too. I have to wake up tomorrow at a normal hour. Later whores.
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