You guys are totally right. It's disheartening because i was pretty excited to start a cycle and reap the rewards, but after listening to you guys and thinking about it for a couple hours I don't think it's worth it at the moment. So I'm deciding to call of the cycle before it even starts. I read some forums with young guys who done fucked up their shit and want to kill them selves because the cycle got botched and I don't want to add to that group or become one of them. I'll attempt to add another 1000 calories and train harder to get bigger. Thank you all for the great advice. Now I can only hope to gain 10-20 pounds in the next year or two. And maybe I'll be back on this forum talking about a cycle when I'm ready.