whom you are definately enamored with, to be with a gorgeous ex-junkie(3 years clean) who you think might be the woman you want to marry. She's smart, she's funny, educated, independant.

I feel like an idiot... one with no clue as to what to do.

I like my girlfriend a whole lot, but i the feelings I have for girl #2 are tearing me apart.

Cheating isnt an option, I refuse to. Girl 2 kissed me tonight, and then we had to have a talk about this whole thing.

Now its time for me to go to bed, and im still trying to figure out how to go to sleep next to my girl while im feeling like this.

****ing stupid me. Stupid, stupid me.