Motivation

[Fiskevatten]

Yes, I have a business idea and I can officially start this if I continue to study for something specific and get my creds. i'm not doing this right now and it is a problem in my life because if I complete this and than I can open my own consultant business which I have done in my 20s but this would be different and more specialized, If I factor everything correctly that is my fucking carrot but I have no drive to actually do this since I'm still only 30 years old. I have this idea to get the cred and become a consultant when I'm over 40 and dont have drive to do this now... I just dont as its a carrot thats far away for now and if i do start, lets say I take this whole year to work on this cred than by next year or in two years i can start consulting on my own and running things differently in my life but it all starts with the creds that i have to build which would take a year out of my life not to mention if i want to go even higher with this than i need two years to study for this and when im finally 32-34 I can fully open up this shop and run things around the US or around the world with this consultancy.. Depending if i ever get my head out of my ass and start studying again
You cant just register online as a consultant for this without the background i am in right now


You're also wrong about the adrenaline piece, I have pure adrenaline and rage running through my veins, I train like a mad man who has been chained to a cell most of his life, I train with rage and I'm sure the guys "ladies" around here couldn't keep up with my pace or workout as i go for hours while destroying and destroying my body, mind and soul until there is nothing left in the tank
Like right now, I hit legs/back hard on Tuesday and its Thursday now, I'm still sore and destroyed but feeling recovery coming on

Regarding my training, the anger is there, I train like a beast
Why do you think i train late at night... because practically nobody is there and they cant witness my greatness "rage"

The first part is hard for any of us to get our heads into and help you un-knot, but every business owner or successful people I have ever talked to has had the same comment - "I wish I started earlier".
That together with "Don't overthink it, just start", you will always have something pulling you back.
Now, with you being in the state you are in and/ or situation, you might need to start at a different path just to give yourself some leverage? Think outside the box so to speak.
Doing something like that might be hard or even impossible right now for you alone, so you might need to speak to a pro. Not talking about a psychologist, but a pro at creative thinking regarding
startup, education, consulting or anything similar.

Carrot isn't something that you should "factor in", it's a feeling that takes you forward regardless of were you are or what options you have.

Regarding adrenaline, you won't get adrenaline in a gym. I'm not sure you meant that you do other things as well, but the gym is a "safe" space, no matter what rage you have.
Point of adrenaline is to put you at a place where it will scare you shitless, but reward you with a beating heart of 1000.
If you are there already, then keep it up!

[EDCG19]

The first part is hard for any of us to get our heads into and help you un-knot, but every business owner or successful people I have ever talked to has had the same comment - "I wish I started earlier".
That together with "Don't overthink it, just start", you will always have something pulling you back.
Now, with you being in the state you are in and/ or situation, you might need to start at a different path just to give yourself some leverage? Think outside the box so to speak.
Doing something like that might be hard or even impossible right now for you alone, so you might need to speak to a pro. Not talking about a psychologist, but a pro at creative thinking regarding
startup, education, consulting or anything similar.

Carrot isn't something that you should "factor in", it's a feeling that takes you forward regardless of were you are or what options you have.

Regarding adrenaline, you won't get adrenaline in a gym. I'm not sure you meant that you do other things as well, but the gym is a "safe" space, no matter what rage you have.
Point of adrenaline is to put you at a place where it will scare you shitless, but reward you with a beating heart of 1000.
If you are there already, then keep it up!

I think you made some great points and i do need to rethink this and focus more on my goals rather than putting them off another year which only sets me back and makes me feel like shit because i could have done this three years ago but i didn't have the same drive.. it was broken out of me but something is lighting the fire again so idk, hoping one of these days i finally get off my ass and use that energy for studying even though it hurts and is a pain in the ass to do this everyday trying to stay dedicated but it is fucking tough and challenging especially when life hits something at you and than you find yourself broken again and cant focus on the right goals

good points man.. thanks for your response

[EDCG19]

I need to refocus my mind. I need to keep myself sharp and ready for the journey ahead or i'll continue to fail at this

[Fiskevatten]

I need to refocus my mind. I need to keep myself sharp and ready for the journey ahead or i'll continue to fail at this

Give em hell brother!

[EDCG19]

This is the dark place.
This is where you think of every way you have failed yourself and your children. You think ablout all the bad shit you have done and what a useless fuck you are just like all the sonsabitches around you.

You will find a lotta hate building up.
Put it to use. Its ten times more effective than the lovey dovey, "patience is a virtue" bullshit.

Guess I aint virtuous. I got shit to do hard.

I now understand what you mean by this. When you hate yourself so much you begin to change and use that energy and drive to be better

[XnavyHMCS]

Short term, Intermediate and Long term goals.

"Don't give anybody the opportunity to write potential on your tombstone"

BEAUTIFUL here gents!!!

[XnavyHMCS]

I understand where you're coming from and i will have to re-read that thread some other time but here's the issue. Lets say you have your goals and you are determined to achieve those goals but for some reason people in your life want to stop you, they want to break your focus and they want you to give up and not be persistent with your goals. So how do you deal with that, I already talked about this a few weeks ago and these group of guys basically told me you're doing this to yourself because of course they want to break your focus and stop you from doing great things because they are fucking losers and they seek to destroy others energy so I'm asking on here how do i conquer again and get after my goals ?

I cant lift weights eat well and do what i need to do to stay fit but really important shit in my life i am usually too broken to continue studying or going for the next best thing in my field.. I know this is on me for listening to others and putting their beliefs into my head on what they say about me etc.. but still if it would just stop than I could focus on myself without having people around me bringing me down and breaking my focus on purpose

I guess thats the game of conquer and destroy, go after what someone else has or has done and take what you can for yourself by completely fucking with their head and their life... Sometimes i wish i was just like others but somehow i am not..

The answer might be fuck everybody and keep your iron sharp and your focus on whats important and the other shit don't let it get into your head but thats the problem, sometimes something slips and enters your head just what someone else planned to happen.

And I was trolled out by a clown like this... You had the audacity to bust my b***s over the selected topic of my Master's Degree thesis... Ha Ha Ha!!! I feel like a real fool, you know. I am rapidly approaching 54 yrs on the planet, with a treasure chest of achievements in my past, and more on the horizon; and I was trolled by YOU (and the other guy)... I gotta lay-off the porn and spend more time honing my online skills; I see where I am deficient.

Your above post sounds to me like you let other's control your destiny. Perhaps this is a method of rationalization for you, "Well, it's not my fault that I didn't succeed; they/he/she stonewalled me..." This is a cop-out, bro!!!

Take control of your life!!! Take control of your own destiny!!!

You gotta love it when it sucks!

[GearHeaded]

And I was trolled out by a clown like this... You had the audacity to bust my b***s over the selected topic of my Master's Degree thesis... Ha Ha Ha!!! I feel like a real fool, you know. I am rapidly approaching 54 yrs on the planet, with a treasure chest of achievements in my past, and more on the horizon; and I was trolled by YOU (and the other guy)... I gotta lay-off the porn and spend more time honing my online skills; I see where I am deficient.

Your above post sounds to me like you let other's control your destiny. Perhaps this is a method of rationalization for you, "Well, it's not my fault that I didn't succeed; they/he/she stonewalled me..." This is a cop-out, bro!!!

Take control of your life!!! Take control of your own destiny!!!

You gotta love it when it sucks!

you see where your deficient in your online skills .. hmm. do you really ?

you've been a member of this forum for a year, yet you only have 25 posts and with that little post count your writing this post with two paragraphs to call out another productive member of this board and talk shit in an attempt to justify yourself and feel better about yourself.

[Obs]

I now understand what you mean by this. When you hate yourself so much you begin to change and use that energy and drive to be better

Yes.
About 3 years ago I was going to kill myself.
Was skinny sickly and drank myself to sleep.

Time came and I got mad.
I got mad as hell and unlike normal the anger didnt leave. I stayed pissed off for a year. Decided I would win and no one would stop me.

I was in a bad way to say the least.
There was no more sadness in me it was just hatred.
I did kill myself that night. I dont remember that guy because he was a bitch. You can turn anything into drive, anger is easiest. Channeling it into productive behavior works well. Its a replacement lifestyle.

Anger has since died off.
I was 100% alone though. I didnt have anyone to come save my ass. No friend or family.
It was to the point of continuing my path meant I would die tonight. My other option was to become someone else and kill that guy I was.

I did a stellar job.
I still suck but I am way better than I was.

[XnavyHMCS]

you see where your deficient in your online skills .. hmm. do you really ?

you've been a member of this forum for a year, yet you only have 25 posts and with that little post count your writing this post with two paragraphs to call out another productive member of this board and talk shit in an attempt to justify yourself and feel better about yourself.

I love it!!! Super clever bro.

Like post count is something which matters. I can see you now at your next job interview/business meeting: "Yes, but my post count on the steroid forum is in the thousands."

I don't need to give this loser who rationalizes his shortcomings through the actions of others (read the thread, or are you too busy racking-up a higher total number of posts) his come-uppance (this time you will need to search a prior thread in which he responded; sorry for the inconvenience, but I am sure that in between sets or shifts at McDonalds you will make up for the lose) in an effort to enhance my well-being.

So comical...

[GearHeaded]

I love it!!! Super clever bro.

Like post cunt is something which matters. I can see you now at your next job interview/business meeting: "Yes, but my post count on the steroid forum is in the thousands."

I don't need to give this loser who rationalizes his shortcomings through the actions of others (read the thread, or are you too busy racking-up a higher total number of posts) his come-uppance (this time you will need to search a prior thread in which he responded; sorry for the inconvenience, but I am sure that in between sets or shifts at McDonalds you will make up for the lose) in an effort to enhance my well-being.

So comical...

when you said above that you were 54 years old , I'm assuming that was a typo , correct. there should be a 1 in front of the 4 and not a 5.

wow now your up to 26 total posts. and boy your posts are exceptional and are really contributing a lot of great info. keep it up mr mature, your earning lots of respect with your great contributions around here

[GearHeaded]

I love it!!! Super clever bro.

Like post count is something which matters. I can see you now at your next job interview/business meeting: "Yes, but my post count on the steroid forum is in the thousands."

I don't need to give this loser who rationalizes his shortcomings through the actions of others (read the thread, or are you too busy racking-up a higher total number of posts) his come-uppance (this time you will need to search a prior thread in which he responded; sorry for the inconvenience, but I am sure that in between sets or shifts at McDonalds you will make up for the lose) in an effort to enhance my well-being.

So comical...

you didn't like a comment that the OP of this thread made on your thread. so you jump over onto his thread just so you can call him a clown and a loser and ridicule him (thats the only reason you responded on this thread) . I called you out on it, so then you mock me as well.

whats comical , well a supposed 54 year old ex military man acting like a 14 year old prissy immature little girl , thats whats comical .

if you want to better your online etiquette you can start by treating people online as real people that you would meet in person. when you meet someone in person for the first time, that you happen to not agree with, do you then respond to thier face by ridiculing them and calling them a clown and a loser ? is that how you conduct yourself in society ? if so then I'm surprised you even made it to 54 years old, or at least 54 without at least a couple broken jaws and fractured skulls

[XnavyHMCS]

when you said above that you were 54 years old , I'm assuming that was a typo , correct. there should be a 1 in front of the 4 and not a 5.

wow now your up to 26 total posts. and boy your posts are exceptional and are really contributing a lot of great info. keep it up mr mature, your earning lots of respect with your great contributions around here

(Now up to 27 and climbing, perhaps, but it is highly likely; I will be as adept and agile as YOU and the other guy)

You know, I threw myself on the mercy of the forum and asked a very serious question (my bad for coming here and expecting a treasure trove of intelligent input) recently, and received some unwarranted flak... We call it: "tit for tat"...

If you can't handle the heat; stay out of the kitchen.

Regarding my age (I searched and saw that I out-rank the two clowns that trolled me in that regard), this is an unfortunate reality. I wish I was younger... Now, hurry up and respond to me and comment on, "your level of maturity..." or something like that, because you are beginning to look a bit ridiculous (or nutt hugging; which is it), because he can slam me for something, but obviously YOU can't handle the return strike.

Listen, I didn't mean any harm here. Yet I firmly believe that he sounded like he wasn't manning up and taking responsibility for his self-admitted lack of motivation. In essence, my interpretation was that he was blaming others... That's all it was, and a dig, just to get even. Never intended to strike such a nerve with you. But I can see how you achieved such a "post count"... You are my idol...

[Obs]

I love it!!! Super clever bro.

Like post count is something which matters. I can see you now at your next job interview/business meeting: "Yes, but my post count on the steroid forum is in the thousands."

I don't need to give this loser who rationalizes his shortcomings through the actions of others (read the thread, or are you too busy racking-up a higher total number of posts) his come-uppance (this time you will need to search a prior thread in which he responded; sorry for the inconvenience, but I am sure that in between sets or shifts at McDonalds you will make up for the lose) in an effort to enhance my well-being.

So comical...

People pay him for training.
He owns a gym.
He has more money in single vehicles than a student in poland is worth.

You aren't making a good name for yourself and since this board and the things people say and do here are meaningless you should probably leave and not come back.

[XnavyHMCS]

you didn't like a comment that the OP of this thread made on your thread. so you jump over onto his thread just so you can call him a clown and a loser and ridicule him (thats the only reason you responded on this thread) . I called you out on it, so then you mock me as well.

whats comical , well a supposed 54 year old ex military man acting like a 14 year old prissy immature little girl , thats whats comical .

if you want to better your online etiquette you can start by treating people online as real people that you would meet in person. when you meet someone in person for the first time, that you happen to not agree with, do you then respond to thier face by ridiculing them and calling them a clown and a loser ? is that how you conduct yourself in society ? if so then I'm surprised you even made it to 54 years old, or at least 54 without at least a couple broken jaws and fractured skulls

Well, physically I have managed to take care of myself thus far...

Hey Caped Crusader, where were you when I could have used some QRF (back-up)??? I wish you would have jumped to my defense as well. Mind telling me why you didn't? (it will increase your post count)

[XnavyHMCS]

People pay him for training.
He owns a gym.
He has more money in single vehicles than a student in poland is worth.

You aren't making a good name for yourself and since this board and the things people say and do here are meaningless you should probably leave and not come back.

Yeah, you are right here, as far as exiting the thread. But I am increasing my post count, can't you see that... FINALLY a worthy response from #2...

Personally, what I have seen of some of the gym owners, I would have to see it to believe it...

[Obs]

Well, physically I have managed to take care of myself thus far...

Hey Caped Crusader, where were you when I could have used some QRF (back-up)??? I wish you would have jumped to my defense as well. Mind telling me why you didn't? (it will increase you post count)

I dont know you.
I know guys that brag on their military service though and they are 100% fake ass bitch. I have met more pussy army, navy,marines, reservists, and coast guard than is believable.
Putting on that uniform doesnt make you a badass.

I dont know you but at no time in your prime could I have not beat your ass. Gun, knife, or fist. It is so because I fucking say so. Thank you for your dedicated service soldier.

Ever want to meet a real soldier come see me. Go write some papers for that college. Go flash your soldier badge some more. You mentioned it it half your posts now.

Your many accomplishments and greatness is just too much for a braggart with 28 posts.

Hey what bramch did you serve in?

Oh...
Nvm.

[Obs]

Yeah, you are right here, as far as exiting the thread. But I am increasing my post count, can't you see that... FINALLY a worthy response from #2...

Personally, what I have seen of some of the gym owners, I would have to see it to believe it...

You wont meet one like this one.
I have looked through thousands.

[EDCG19]

And I was trolled out by a clown like this... You had the audacity to bust my b***s over the selected topic of my Master's Degree thesis... Ha Ha Ha!!! I feel like a real fool, you know. I am rapidly approaching 54 yrs on the planet, with a treasure chest of achievements in my past, and more on the horizon; and I was trolled by YOU (and the other guy)... I gotta lay-off the porn and spend more time honing my online skills; I see where I am deficient.

Your above post sounds to me like you let other's control your destiny. Perhaps this is a method of rationalization for you, "Well, it's not my fault that I didn't succeed; they/he/she stonewalled me..." This is a cop-out, bro!!!

Take control of your life!!! Take control of your own destiny!!!

You gotta love it when it sucks!

You're still on this for some reason? It was a simple joke... get over it already
For godsake you're over 50, at that age I wouldn't give two shits what someone online said

[EDCG19]

I love it!!! Super clever bro.

Like post count is something which matters. I can see you now at your next job interview/business meeting: "Yes, but my post count on the steroid forum is in the thousands."

I don't need to give this loser who rationalizes his shortcomings through the actions of others (read the thread, or are you too busy racking-up a higher total number of posts) his come-uppance (this time you will need to search a prior thread in which he responded; sorry for the inconvenience, but I am sure that in between sets or shifts at McDonalds you will make up for the lose) in an effort to enhance my well-being.

So comical...

You do have a point but I wouldn't call myself a loser, I let some people get into my head at a time when they shouldn't have been there and this thread is kind of inlign with my thoughts and what I have been thinking about. I don't think straying from your own path because of other people breaking your mind is your own fault so I'm not really taking the blame on this, but I'm back... and now I'm ready to take over my destiny again

Trust me you seriously do not understand what I have been going through and your belief that just focus on your own goals etc.. will not work when you honestly have dozens of people trying to break you down and they just wont stop or go away. Its a constant battle with some people and when you are fighting them daily for control of your own head trust me you will loose it eventually or come out of it and be reborn...

Some serious shit happened at work last week and i wont need to explain anything, but now they know im back and my head is in the right place

YES!! I let people get to me before and ruin my mental energy/space focusing on them but truth is that doesn't make me a loser
I'm back and I dont focus on those things anymore.. Shit has changed since i made this thread and thats why i made this thread...

The light inside has been reborn
The fire has been relight, the journey begins again etc...

[Capebuffalo]

Everybody get a good night sleep and have a good breakfast?

[XnavyHMCS]

Thread followers:

I obviously had a good nights sleep, and some time to mull over my above posts, as well as PM contact with the OP.

I want to formally apologize for being an immature a**hole publicly on the forum, and inside the thread. I am in tort / wrong here, and I meant no disrespect to the OP, nor to GearHead, and I didn't intend to hijack in any way shape or form the conversation here.

Thanks for hearing me out.
XnavyHMCS

[Obs]

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