Fuck Cancer

[The road]

Dr started talking to me and used that C word. We will know soon.


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Dont be a pussy charger.

[charger69]

Dont be a pussy charger.

The worst part so far is when I went to the appointment and saw the 5 needles he was going to stick in my neck. LOL
Believe it or not, I hate needles.


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[< <Samson> >]

The worst part so far is when I went to the appointment and saw the 5 needles he was going to stick in my neck. LOL
Believe it or not, I hate needles.

The procedures involved in so much of health diagnostics are what drives me much more to not give a fuck - let alone the corrective procedures

Biopsy of the thyroid - pass, at least that’s how I feel rn


I was gonna ask this but held back a bit - y’all ever just say fuck it? What comes - comes, when it does

I have that as a strong feeling in me rn - fuck looking, why even worry

So far, turning 40 this year & all - I feel like a bit of me is falling apart fairly quickly. This hernia is a bitch, my bitch tit removal equaled out to medieval torture, I can’t even do more curls rn since my right elbow ligament decided to just start aching

My plastic surgeon guy said I should talk to my primary as soon as he seen my low thyroid #’s


^ like I said, pass - so far, at least that’s how I feel - specially during this CV horse shit going on. But, even without - I don’t know if I really care

[SampsonandDelilah]

The procedures involved in so much of health diagnostics are what drives me much more to not give a fuck - let alone the corrective procedures

Biopsy of the thyroid - pass, at least that’s how I feel rn


I was gonna ask this but held back a bit - y’all ever just say fuck it? What comes - comes, when it does

I have that as a strong feeling in me rn - fuck looking, why even worry

So far, turning 40 this year & all - I feel like a bit of me is falling apart fairly quickly. This hernia is a bitch, my bitch tit removal equaled out to medieval torture, I can’t even do more curls rn since my right elbow ligament decided to just start aching

My plastic surgeon guy said I should talk to my primary as soon as he seen my low thyroid #’s


^ like I said, pass - so far, at least that’s how I feel - specially during this CV horse shit going on. But, even without - I don’t know if I really care

Yes, the thought crosses my mind. I’ve had 5 procedures done in 4 weeks and put to sleep each time. Hard to tell up from down and what’s lucid and what’s a dream. The diagnosis is trance like enough. Ya, I’ve thought fuck it. I haven’t even started the hard part yet. Have had meeting after meeting telling me all about chemo and radiation and the hell its going to take on my body and then I have to sign paperwork claiming it’s “voluntary”. That I’m choosing this. What fucking choice do I have? Ya, I could walk away and gamble. Try “alternative” therapies. There’s a million.

Then I look at my boys and realize I really don’t have a choice. If I didn’t have them, then maybe I’d say fuck it. I’m 45 though and have faith that I’ll beat this (no matter how hard) and then have a fulfilling life afterwards. The hard part is when the “voices” creep in and the doubt reeks havoc.

Gotta grin and bear it Samson...

This too shall pass

[kelkel]

Then I look at my boys and realize I really don’t have a choice.

You have no choice. Never did. You're setting an example which will impact them the rest of their lives. Doing anything less would be selfish.

[SampsonandDelilah]

You have no choice. Never did. You're setting an example which will impact them the rest of their lives. Doing anything less would be selfish.

Thank you for that Kel...amen

[GirlyGymRat]

Thank you for that Kel...amen

I’m going to remind you.....the uncertainty of future will cause stress. Please resist bad juju. One day at a time. ODAAT!!!

this is hard to do...especially more so with children and matters of the

[charger69]

The procedures involved in so much of health diagnostics are what drives me much more to not give a fuck - let alone the corrective procedures

Biopsy of the thyroid - pass, at least that’s how I feel rn


I was gonna ask this but held back a bit - y’all ever just say fuck it? What comes - comes, when it does

I have that as a strong feeling in me rn - fuck looking, why even worry

So far, turning 40 this year & all - I feel like a bit of me is falling apart fairly quickly. This hernia is a bitch, my bitch tit removal equaled out to medieval torture, I can’t even do more curls rn since my right elbow ligament decided to just start aching

My plastic surgeon guy said I should talk to my primary as soon as he seen my low thyroid #’s


^ like I said, pass - so far, at least that’s how I feel - specially during this CV horse shit going on. But, even without - I don’t know if I really care

I just can’t say fuck it if there is something that can eliminate the potentially negative outcome. I guess it is just the fighter in me. Yes, I’m dealing with heart issues and thyroid issues. People live with flutter all the time and do not know they even have it. That one , I may come to the point and say fuck it. I
The present plan is to use medication to see if it eliminates it and if not , to go to the shock treatment. I will probably stop there if it isn’t fixed and not get an ablation. I am much more cautious with stims then I used to be. I will cross the ablation bridge when I get there.
The funny thing is I am no longer afraid to die. I made it clear to my wife that if I am put on a machine to live, to pull the fucking plug. Just having a heartbeat is no way to live. I am probably just a selfish asshole, but when it’s my time to go, I will go. If there is anything I can use to my advantage to prolong my stay, I will.
That is the way I feel today, but tomorrow I may feel differently.


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[The road]

You have no choice. Never did. You're setting an example which will impact them the rest of their lives. Doing anything less would be selfish.

I am selfish.
Not doing what I do for my kids or my gf. Its all me. This was my choice and my life. The effect they have keeps me from being a bad guy (totally evil) but thats as far as it goes.

I just can’t say fuck it if there is something that can eliminate the potentially negative outcome. I guess it is just the fighter in me. Yes, I’m dealing with heart issues and thyroid issues. People live with flutter all the time and do not know they even have it. That one , I may come to the point and say fuck it. I
The present plan is to use medication to see if it eliminates it and if not , to go to the shock treatment. I will probably stop there if it isn’t fixed and not get an ablation. I am much more cautious with stims then I used to be. I will cross the ablation bridge when I get there.
The funny thing is I am no longer afraid to die. I made it clear to my wife that if I am put on a machine to live, to pull the fucking plug. Just having a heartbeat is no way to live. I am probably just a selfish asshole, but when it’s my time to go, I will go. If there is anything I can use to my advantage to prolong my stay, I will.
That is the way I feel today, but tomorrow I may feel differently.


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We are a lot alike.

If I feel differently it will be darker and more selfish.

Sampson is stronger than all of us and much less self centered.

[charger69]

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Sampson is stronger than all of us and much less self centered.

So true! I just wish that Sampson fell in love with a girl named Mary and not Delilah, that way I could call him S&M. LOL


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[The road]

So true! I just wish that Sampson fell in love with a girl named Mary and not Delilah, that way I could call him S&M. LOL


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Lmao you been hanging out with ragnar too long

[kelkel]

So true! I just wish that Sampson fell in love with a girl named Mary and not Delilah, that way I could call him S&M. LOL


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How long have you been working on that one?