Dude its your life but honestly just jump on trt, cruise at a low dose, eat health as hell!, do some cardio and get yourself back in the normal range. I love being big but not at the cost of my life! lol your crazy! It wont take long if your diet is spot on and your training to get in shape not just lifting...paleo diet is amazing! Once your healthy again you can jump on more gear but health should be number one! Plus you will just feel better...I feel so much better when Im health and lean!

Out of curiosity what kind of compounds did you use? what was your diet like as well?