Zeus' competition entry 17 April 2017

[Obs]

Yeah you're definetly right man. I am noticibly bigger in clothes so people have been commenting. However if i am having a bad day i can look at myself in the mirror and look tiny and fat. Its nuts what your mind can do to you.

Must be where the saying 'feel good look good' comes from.

We have it pretty good. Ask couchlokd about dysmorphia. He was beyond fat @255 and cut to 130lb. He said he still sees a fat guy in the mirror even though he is like 8% bf.
Looking big in clothes is what its all about!

[hollowedzeus]

We do indeed. A healthy mind is a treasure most people dont appreciate.

[hollowedzeus]

Dropped the 46 dumbell on my oblique earlier. Probably ruptured something. Nothing to worry about.

Went to failure and only managed a half rep at the end and it came crashing down unfortunatly on to my petite body.

[hollowedzeus]

Started pullback a few days early. Did arms today and had a painful pump. Cialis on an empty stomach was a mistake. Had a banana yo wash yhe taste away to be fair

550kcal of cardio today in half an hour. Awesome. Really struggled though. Wish cardarine didnt cause cancer....
Aiming for 2500kcal today

[hollowedzeus]

Opted to sleep in this morning. I think im gonna do legs and cardio after work tonight.

[hollowedzeus]

Also struggling to eat enough the now... been on 80g of carbs the last 3 days. Coming into the comp pics with a bang

[hollowedzeus]

Rather enjoyed my cardio today. 550kcal. Was contemplating driving past tge gym but i done it. Quick legs and cardio session and done.

Did have some sort of asphyxiation feeling going on though like i was breathing hot air with a bad over my head... maybe im just into that.... who knows

[hollowedzeus]

Got the whole 'life falling apart' feeling going on today. Sitting waiting to go to the gym before work feeling like i hsve just committed a crime

[Obs]

Got the whole 'life falling apart' feeling going on today. Sitting waiting to go to the gym before work feeling like i hsve just committed a crime

I get that way after getting drunk usually wears off in two days

[hollowedzeus]

Its not armed robbery if you're never caught, am i right?

I felt my heartbeat irregular earlier and i checked my bp. Came out 152/70 78bpm

My usual is somewhere around 100/60ish.

I fucking hate feeling this way. Every sound i hear is amplified into large bangs. Plus i have an engagment party tonight that i have to go to. That ought to turn out well

[hollowedzeus]

Had some bagels and protein powder post workout. Feel very sick. Workout was shite. Roll on tonight

[hollowedzeus]

Had some bagels and protein powder post workout. Feel very sick. Workout was shite. Roll on tonight

[hollowedzeus]

This shirt used to fit me nicely. Nice seeing the arms being a little tighter. Needed that boost today.

My veitnam flashback subsided before the party so it wasnt all bad. Had to explain to the girl from work tonight that i didnt want a relationship with her. Whoops.

If anyone has any spare testosterone please feel free to send it all to me.

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[Obs]

This shirt used to fit me nicely. Nice seeing the arms being a little tighter. Needed that boost today.

My veitnam flashback subsided before the party so it wasnt all bad. Had to explain to the girl from work tonight that i didnt want a relationship with her. Whoops.

If anyone has any spare testosterone please feel free to send it all to me.

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Just wanted to remind you tren gives some people your anxiety issue you had feeling guilty earlier.
Figure thats probably the issue!

[hollowedzeus]

DONT TELL ME WHAT TO DO.

Tren doesnt give me any side affects. If i find out who told you that. You dont know what im going to do....

Arghhhhhh!

[hollowedzeus]

Buzzed all the hair off today... felt weird.
Got my progress pictures today just incase i dont get a chance on monday. Probably should have learned how to pose.... nonetheless it is done and it has been a pleasure working against doc ghetto and quester

[hollowedzeus]

Hopefully i can retake the photos on monday. Light is only on one side of my body... these can be my backup ones

[Sicko]

Its not armed robbery if you're never caught, am i right?

I felt my heartbeat irregular earlier and i checked my bp. Came out 152/70 78bpm

My usual is somewhere around 100/60ish.

I fucking hate feeling this way. Every sound i hear is amplified into large bangs. Plus i have an engagment party tonight that i have to go to. That ought to turn out well

Sounds like you are having anxiety attacks.
I got diagnosed about 20 yrs. ago with anxiety disorder. Some are just uncomfortable uneasy feelings...some had me calling 911 back in the day before I figured out how to manage them.
Pretty scary they can be. Especially if you compound a severe anxiety attack with a panic attack..MMmm those will make you think twice about heaven and hell...ehehehhh...

[hollowedzeus]

Sounds like you are having anxiety attacks.
I got diagnosed about 20 yrs. ago with anxiety disorder. Some are just uncomfortable uneasy feelings...some had me calling 911 back in the day before I figured out how to manage them.
Pretty scary they can be. Especially if you compound a severe anxiety attack with a panic attack..MMmm those will make you think twice about heaven and hell...ehehehhh...

I was surprised with how much it changed my blood pressure. It was also as rested as i could have took the result too.

Its only this past year ive felt this way. I dont know of anything thats triggering it...

Had a really bad time at work a few weeks ago where my level of functioning dropped dramatically. Far worse than yesterday.

What really can be done to counteract or avoid them?
Its not a fun place to be at all. I know its happening but i cant pull myself out of it.

[hammerheart]

Its not armed robbery if you're never caught, am i right?

I felt my heartbeat irregular earlier and i checked my bp. Came out 152/70 78bpm

My usual is somewhere around 100/60ish.

I fucking hate feeling this way. Every sound i hear is amplified into large bangs. Plus i have an engagment party tonight that i have to go to. That ought to turn out well

Mine would get up to 160/90 , hr 120 bpm when anxious. I recall going to sleep with a pounding heart and waking up in the night with unrelenting heart hammering.

Literally, like living in a 24h nightmare of panic.

[hollowedzeus]

Mine would get up to 160/90 , hr 120 bpm when anxious. I recall going to sleep with a pounding heart and waking up in the night with unrelenting heart hammering.

Literally, like living in a 24h nightmare of panic.

Wish i was able to check the one a while ago for bp. Woild have been interesting...

That sounds horrendous. Ive noticed i feel a bit better after a few hours. Ive noticed intense sweating and a pounding heart before bed but its never carried the same feeling.

Really not enjoying it tbh. I rate it a 3/10. Somethings got to change

[Obs]

Sounds like you are having anxiety attacks.
I got diagnosed about 20 yrs. ago with anxiety disorder. Some are just uncomfortable uneasy feelings...some had me calling 911 back in the day before I figured out how to manage them.
Pretty scary they can be. Especially if you compound a severe anxiety attack with a panic attack..MMmm those will make you think twice about heaven and hell...ehehehhh...

I had a few.
My control turned into what I have become best at.
Convert it all into wont back down drive. I felt like the world was ending and I accepted that I didn't mind. I would control what I could and to hell with what I couldnt.

[hollowedzeus]

I had a few.
My control turned into what I have become best at.
Convert it all into wont back down drive. I felt like the world was ending and I accepted that I didn't mind. I would control what I could and to hell with what I couldnt.

You make it sound so easy.

My training was absolutely wasted the other day... instead of focussing on breathing between sets and reps. I am focussing on breathing to keep myself from curling into a ball.

Its not an emotion that i know how to convert to something constructive. Its a somethibg that is toxic and i can barely function with

[hammerheart]

I would control what I could and to hell with what I couldnt.

That's a principle of Stoic thinking right there. No reason to bother about shit not in our control.

[Obs]

That's a principle of Stoic thinking right there. No reason to bother about shit not in our control.

It will definitely eat you alive. We can over time literally brain wash ourselves into nearly any state. Its amazing just how much power the brain has. Even my little one does ok sometimes.

[hollowedzeus]

Missed the gym last night had a nice relaxing night. Will probably manage tonight.

Last day. Its been swell

[Couchlock]

So your playing with tren now zues?

[hollowedzeus]

It makes me a more complete person.

Haha nah im all natural ive got th3 feeling you think im being serious. Never touched gear before and dont intent to for a few years. Ive heard it has the unwanted side affects of increased sex drive, better wellbeing and increased testosterone .

Nooo thankyou!

[hammerheart]

It makes me a more complete person.

Haha nah im all natural ive got th3 feeling you think im being serious. Never touched gear before and dont intent to for a few years. Ive heard it has the unwanted side affects of increased sex drive, better wellbeing and increased testosterone .

Nooo thankyou!

What about those vials of injectable mtren I sent to you?

[hollowedzeus]

What about those vials of injectable mtren I sent to you?

It was causing too many woman issues. I couldnt move in public without being groped by women. They must have smelled my ferocity. Anywayyu. Since im so opposed to testosterone i got bored of having relentless sex with 12 women a night. I grew weary.

I do appreciate the gift tho. I may save the rest for another time, whenever relentless shagging becomes a necessity for me

[Obs]

It was causing too many woman issues. I couldnt move in public without being groped by women. They must have smelled my ferocity. Anywayyu. Since im so opposed to testosterone i got bored of having relentless sex with 12 women a night. I grew weary.

I do appreciate the gift tho. I may save the rest for another time, whenever relentless shagging becomes a necessity for me

You have done well grasshoppa...
A dozen women in the had is worth 100 in the bush...
Mmm...
I likes me a big 'ol bush...

[hollowedzeus]

Hah! I wish! Sort of... kind of... your 1 to 10 ratio sounds too good to be true however. Link me to a study?

Also im telling the truth. Its kind of embarrassing but im... well. Im bruised..... from being the tool of so many
Young women

[hammerheart]

I've got 2nd degree burns in the process of healing lol. Never again.

[hollowedzeus]

Its a nightmare being a handsome charming guy.
Sudacrem ought to do the trick biz. Worked for me

[Obs]

We can smell the bullshit in here from clear over on the q/a forum.

[hollowedzeus]

Sometimes youve just got to believe.

[hollowedzeus]

DAY 81

Last day today. Its been an awesome journey thank you to everyone on my log offering advice and encouragment. I havent been perfect but i tried to be perfect. Tomorrow starts my cut for a few weeks then back to bulking.
I am happy with my progress despite having lots of downs...

Nonetheless i am most happy to be part of this competiton.

Best of luck doc ghetto and quester


TRAINING
Bent over rows
3 sets 90kg

T bar rows
3 sets 90kg

Single arm lat pulldown pulley
3 sets 80kg

Lat pulldown
3 sets 93kg

Back extention 130kg

DIET
500g chicken
250 rice
3 banana
Bagels
Bread
Protein powder
Cheese

SUPPLEMENTS
3000mg fish oil
Zma
Msm glucosamine
Multivitimin
Creatine
Bcaa
Nac
Greens supplement
Vit D3 5600iu (fuck my docs prescription)
B12 6mg

[WarnerLit]

Thats dead good, that is, but why post it here? Post it in the May photo competition thread. It could be a dead cert

[Obs]

Thats dead good, that is, but why post it here? Post it in the May photo competition thread. It could be a dead cert

Its a 2 year old thread dumass.

Now go talk polotics in the diet section.

[Obs]

Seriously look at this idiots posts.

"Welcome to cms" wtf?

Random ass weird shit.

Ban