5 Things We Dont Know About Each Other

[Couchlockd]

1. Regret never serving in the military, almost did twice but thanks to baseball and a partial implant in my shoulder I failed my physical.

2. Never had a threesome :-(

3. Have a Terrible icecream addition

4. Love fishing more than about anything

5. I struggle with depression and anxiety. I can’t recall there ever being a day that I didn’t think about wanting to die until I met my current GF. Even as a very young kid I just didn’t like being alive. My parents were great and I had a big loving family. I can’t explain it it’s just is what it is. I have an extreme impulse to help people and make their lives better. Mainly because I feel that if I help someone or am nice to them even when I shouldn’t be, that will help take away some of the discomforts of life. It’s silly and something I’m working on.

I can totally relate to number 5 man.

[Capebuffalo]

Wow. Thanks everyone who has participated.

Keep them coming.

[guitarzan]

I can totally relate to number 5 man.

That's something I've never had a problem with, other than going through something like a break up. I use to not understand it, I guess cause I don't suffer from it, but have some from really good friends that do. Must be a hard thing to deal with, and I feel for those do.

[MuscleScience]

That's something I've never had a problem with, other than going through something like a break up. I use to not understand it, I guess cause I don't suffer from it, but have some from really good friends that do. Must be a hard thing to deal with, and I feel for those do.

I should say, I don’t want to die. It’s weird to explain, It’s just I’ve never really liked being alive. Even as a little kid I always pondered what the point of being alive was. I do enjoy things and people and experiences. It’s just the fact that I don’t see the point to living and suffering for no good reason?

[Capebuffalo]

@Charger69. Tell us something we don’t know.

[bethdoth]

Shit everyone already knows my life story! I will try and think of somethings you may not know that might be interesting.

[Capebuffalo]

I really like guns.

[guitarzan]

I really like guns.

Wow, that's suprising!

[MuscleScience]

I really like guns.

And cocks?

[Capebuffalo]

And cocks?

You offering?

[MuscleScience]

You offering?

Asking for a friend... “cough,” OB “cough.”

[Capebuffalo]

Asking for a friend... “cough,” OB “cough.”

Is your account hacked? Not sure what you’re asking.

[BG]

I should say, I don’t want to die. It’s weird to explain, It’s just I’ve never really liked being alive. Even as a little kid I always pondered what the point of being alive was. I do enjoy things and people and experiences. It’s just the fact that I don’t see the point to living and suffering for no good reason?

I was the same way, my Dad was a drunk, used to leave me outside bars for 8-10 hours at a time totally forgetting I was in the truck. He was gone when I was 8, my Mom passed away when I was 15 of cancer, then my brother died in a street bike accident 4 days before my 18th birthday, buried him the day before. I hated life, I was fucking mean, hard on girls, everyone, went through jobs like water. Met my wife and things were great until we got serious, then I went into a deep depression because I never cared about life , was 30, no money, no house. It ate me alive, I hated my self which which my wife took the grunt of. I went to doctor and I had low T (90's pro-hormones destroyed me) but that opened the door to juicing......and I went for it. My life revolved around it, all or nothing. All my money and time. Then 37 came and I realized I did it again, I went no where for 7 more years. This broke me, I wanted a divorce, was going to bounce and date nasty meaningless girls the rest of my life. I was sitting in the gym and my friend said "You need to go to church, Jesus will take this anger from you". He said it a few more times a few more days, then he said I PROMISE. So I went to church, was saved and things are great. Im not preaching to you about Faith, what I learned from this was I had no HOPE!! Nothing really to live for, being saved I believe I will be reunited with my Mom and be able to tell her all the things I couldn't when I was 15.....I finally had something to live for.

I know depression well, HOPE heals. If people who have depression were able to find something to give them hope, something to get up everyday and live for I believe they would feel much better and be able to cope. HOPE is powerful, it can bring one joy.

[MuscleScience]

I was the same way, my Dad was a drunk, used to leave me outside bars for 8-10 hours at a time totally forgetting I was in the truck. He was gone when I was 8, my Mom passed away when I was 15 of cancer, then my brother died in a street bike accident 4 days before my 18th birthday, buried him the day before. I hated life, I was fucking mean, hard on girls, everyone, went through jobs like water. Met my wife and things were great until we got serious, then I went into a deep depression because I never cared about life , was 30, no money, no house. It ate me alive, I hated my self which which my wife took the grunt of. I went to doctor and I had low T (90's pro-hormones destroyed me) but that opened the door to juicing......and I went for it. My life revolved around it, all or nothing. All my money and time. Then 37 came and I realized I did it again, I went no where for 7 more years. This broke me, I wanted a divorce, was going to bounce and date nasty meaningless girls the rest of my life. I was sitting in the gym and my friend said "You need to go to church, Jesus will take this anger from you". He said it a few more times a few more days, then he said I PROMISE. So I went to church, was saved and things are great. Im not preaching to you about Faith, what I learned from this was I had no HOPE!! Nothing really to live for, being saved I believe I will be reunited with my Mom and be able to tell her all the things I couldn't when I was 15.....I finally had something to live for.

I know depression well, HOPE heals. If people who have depression were able to find something to give them hope, something to get up everyday and live for I believe they would feel much better and be able to cope. HOPE is powerful, it can bring one joy.

Great post.

One of my favorite Christian Songs “When Death Was Arrested.” there is a line that says “he canceled my debt and called me his friend.” Speaks to me, it’s a powerful song.

[Capebuffalo]

I was the same way, my Dad was a drunk, used to leave me outside bars for 8-10 hours at a time totally forgetting I was in the truck. He was gone when I was 8, my Mom passed away when I was 15 of cancer, then my brother died in a street bike accident 4 days before my 18th birthday, buried him the day before. I hated life, I was fucking mean, hard on girls, everyone, went through jobs like water. Met my wife and things were great until we got serious, then I went into a deep depression because I never cared about life , was 30, no money, no house. It ate me alive, I hated my self which which my wife took the grunt of. I went to doctor and I had low T (90's pro-hormones destroyed me) but that opened the door to juicing......and I went for it. My life revolved around it, all or nothing. All my money and time. Then 37 came and I realized I did it again, I went no where for 7 more years. This broke me, I wanted a divorce, was going to bounce and date nasty meaningless girls the rest of my life. I was sitting in the gym and my friend said "You need to go to church, Jesus will take this anger from you". He said it a few more times a few more days, then he said I PROMISE. So I went to church, was saved and things are great. Im not preaching to you about Faith, what I learned from this was I had no HOPE!! Nothing really to live for, being saved I believe I will be reunited with my Mom and be able to tell her all the things I couldn't when I was 15.....I finally had something to live for.

I know depression well, HOPE heals. If people who have depression were able to find something to give them hope, something to get up everyday and live for I believe they would feel much better and be able to cope. HOPE is powerful, it can bring one joy.

Great Testimony Brother. Powerful. Thank you for sharing.

[Obs]

I talked myself out of suicidal thoughts with the perfect internal argument. I used my anger to propel everything including that. I would not have survived without that hatred. It was channeling it into drive that saved my ass.

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^^^ wife left with 5 kids, alcohol, 2 b felony charges (first real trouble legally), no friend, no relative, isolation but for working 2 full time jobs, buried in debt, house in forclosure...

Fucking exhausted and sick, only realized it after throwing brush off my trailer in the dark when I would go home and all was silence. It was a buzz in my ears reminding me no one cared. I was fully ready to kill myself and bought a gun to do it. Only gun I never fired.

[Windex]

1. I am color blind - Green & Yellow are the same. Blue and Purple are the same. Most red & brown are the same. For that reason, pink is my favorite color.

2. I believe in Karma

3. I don't believe in marriage

Will have to think of 2 more

[Capebuffalo]

Well fuck. In my dark time when I was alone and didn’t give a fuck about anything and I was real high and the shadow people would come and I would think about killing myself I knew it would kill my mom if I did. So I would make through another night. Then start the process all over gain the next night. One New Year’s Eve I went and bought a Bible and started reading. I read all night. Over the next few days I read all of it. Then I had questions. Wound up in church. Then was baptized. I never looked back or did drugs again.

[guitarzan]

Well fuck. In my dark time when I was alone and didn’t give a fuck about anything and I was real high and the shadow people would come and I would think about killing myself I knew it would kill my mom if I did. So I would make through another night. Then start the process all over gain the next night. One New Year’s Eve I went and bought a Bible and started reading. I read all night. Over the next few days I read all of it. Then I had questions. Wound up in church. Then was baptized. I never looked back or did drugs again.

Amen brother

[guitarzan]

In the last two years, I've had five friends, and/or family end their lives. It hurts for sure

[Capebuffalo]

In the last two years, I've had five friends, and/or family end their lives. It hurts for sure

Damn Tarzan. I’m sorry. Can’t imagine.

[Windex]

1. I am color blind - Green & Yellow are the same. Blue and Purple are the same. Most red & brown are the same. For that reason, pink is my favorite color.

2. I believe in Karma

3. I don't believe in marriage

Will have to think of 2 more

4. I get Night Terrors / Recurring Nightmares on Tren ...imagine having the same nightmare 4-6 times a week for 16 weeks straight...

[Capebuffalo]

4. I get Night Terrors / Recurring Nightmares on Tren...imagine having the same nightmare 4-6 times a week for 16 weeks straight...

That would suck.

[BG]

4. I get Night Terrors / Recurring Nightmares on Tren...imagine having the same nightmare 4-6 times a week for 16 weeks straight...

I used to get the nightmares on tren . Mainly being out somewhere with my wife, then all of a sudden she was gone. I would call for her but no noise would come out, I would try to text her but phone wouldn't work, then my phone would be gone. I would start to freak out, get so angry I would wake up soaked and so mad I couldn't sleep next to her, I had this dream at least 50 times, if your mind isn't right, tren is for that person. Sometimes I wouldn't talk to her for days.........I cant believe she is still with me. I had to stop running tren, it caused my mind not to be able to control my insecurities.

[BG]

Great post.

One of my favorite Christian Songs “When Death Was Arrested.” there is a line that says “he canceled my debt and called me his friend.” Speaks to me, it’s a powerful song.

Awesome buddy!! I went to worship at Universal Studio's a couple weeks ago and had a real powerful night, could use another right now

[calgarian]

ok. I had to think about it. but here it goes.
1. I am the youngest and only boy . I have 5 older sisters.
2. I started school at grade 3 cause my dad teach me at home.
3. I did my Bsc when I was 17 with Major of Mathematics, physics and statistics (cant remember the formula in organic chemistry for the life of me in grade 12).
4. I did my Masters in computer science when I was 22.( Yes I am a freaking nerd)
5. I lost my job and couldnt find it for one year (Calgary is oil city and oil price went down and no one wanted to hire a guy with 20+ experience.). Accumulated lots of debt and I flip houses as a side business so I can get out of debt.
You said 5 but here some more.
6. I am very very protective of my kids, to me world should be a candy store for the kids .
7. The only person I have no problem killing is a child molester I dont care what "medical science" say just shoot the mofo dead.
8. I migrated to Canada when I was 23 lived all those years in my beloved city 18 years. Still own a house there.(Calgary AB Canada)

[MuscleScience]

ok. I had to think about it. but here it goes.
1. I am the youngest and only boy . I have 5 older sisters.
2. I started school at grade 3 cause my dad teach me at home.
3. I did my Bsc when I was 17 with Major of Mathematics, physics and statistics (cant remember the formula in organic chemistry for the life of me in grade 12).
4. I did my Masters in computer science when I was 22.( Yes I am a freaking nerd)
5. I lost my job and couldnt find it for one year (Calgary is oil city and oil price went down and no one wanted to hire a guy with 20+ experience.). Accumulated lots of debt and I flip houses as a side business so I can get out of debt.
You said 5 but here some more.
6. I am very very protective of my kids, to me world should be a candy store for the kids .
7. The only person I have no problem killing is a child molester I dont care what "medical science" say just shoot the mofo dead.
8. I migrated to Canada when I was 23 lived all those years in my beloved city 18 years. Still own a house there.(Calgary AB Canada)

Where did you live prior to moving to Canada?

[calgarian]

Where did you live prior to moving to Canada?

Pakistan.

[ghettoboyd]

you may or may not know these things about me:

1. I to am colorblind but I do see color I just cant tell green from red and most things look brown to me depending on if it is under the light or not...


2. I love my wife of 20 years with all my heart I believe in soulmates and she is mine...


3. I feel like a failure as a father because I cant seem to communicate with my daughter anymore...she is seventeen and has every materialistic thing available on this earth yet she is never happy and always depressed...every conversation ends in a fight...I feel like I have lost her...I feel as if I have taught her nothing...I loose sleep at night because my brain wont shut down until I fix this but I cant...


4. I have not talked with my father in 17yrs...and it was 15 years before that I had not seen him or spoken to him...


5. i do not own any firearms nor do i hunt even though i live in a state rich with forests and game...

[calgarian]

you may or may not know these things about me:

1. I to am colorblind but I do see color I just cant tell green from red and most things look brown to me depending on if it is under the light or not...


2. I love my wife of 20 years with all my heart I believe in soulmates and she is mine...


3. I feel like a failure as a father because I cant seem to communicate with my daughter anymore...she is seventeen and has every materialistic thing available on this earth yet she is never happy and always depressed...every conversation ends in a fight...I feel like I have lost her...I feel as if I have taught her nothing...I loose sleep at night because my brain wont shut down until I fix this but I cant...


4. I have not talked with my father in 17yrs...and it was 15 years before that I had not seen him or spoken to him...


5. i do not own any firearms nor do i hunt even though i live in a state rich with forests and game...

Me too.

[Obs]

you may or may not know these things about me:

1. I to am colorblind but I do see color I just cant tell green from red and most things look brown to me depending on if it is under the light or not...


2. I love my wife of 20 years with all my heart I believe in soulmates and she is mine...


3. I feel like a failure as a father because I cant seem to communicate with my daughter anymore...she is seventeen and has every materialistic thing available on this earth yet she is never happy and always depressed...every conversation ends in a fight...I feel like I have lost her...I feel as if I have taught her nothing...I loose sleep at night because my brain wont shut down until I fix this but I cant...


4. I have not talked with my father in 17yrs...and it was 15 years before that I had not seen him or spoken to him...


5. i do not own any firearms nor do i hunt even though i live in a state rich with forests and game...

#3....
I fear my kids will resent me. I will spare you the stories but I promise you she will see all you have done for her. It's hard as fuck being a father. Being divorced they say its the kids that suffer most, but I disagree. They know I am there for them and love them as does their mother. It has gotten to the point I can't even enjoy my time with them without choking back tears the entire time. Something is always burning dads eyes, sun or allergies.

History will tell the story, only so much we can do. Just gotta do our best. It's hard to be the rock everyone pulls themself up on all the tim and then have to leave for a couple weeks. You learn to turn your emotions on and off like a switch and my gf wonders why I get so distant...

Love is pain.
Someone is getting a lot of love.

[bikeral]

1. My biggest addictions are alcohol and women. Its been a few months that I'm staying away from both and concentrating on training.
2. My life regret is leaving my second wife for another woman that turned out to be an evil witch. I'm still good friends with my second wife but the damage is done.
3. I've amassed a fortune in real estate and stocks but I feel like I have nothing.
4. I'm currently retired at 53 and I'm bored most of the day. Go to gym 2-3 times a day. Beach. Sounds like great life but I'm tired of it.
5. I currently live with a roommate since I left my third wife. Guy in his 30's. He's out partying every night and I'm home watching TV before 9. Pretty crazy since I still own 4 houses in 3 countries and I'm living like a guy just out of college with a roommate.

[Capebuffalo]

1. My biggest addictions are alcohol and women. Its been a few months that I'm staying away from both and concentrating on training.
2. My life regret is leaving my second wife for another woman that turned out to be an evil witch. I'm still good friends with my second wife but the damage is done.
3. I've amassed a fortune in real estate and stocks but I feel like I have nothing.
4. I'm currently retired at 53 and I'm bored most of the day. Go to gym 2-3 times a day. Beach. Sounds like great life but I'm tired of it.
5. I currently live with a roommate since I left my third wife. Guy in his 30's. He's out partying every night and I'm home watching TV before 9. Pretty crazy since I still own 4 houses in 3 countries and I'm living like a guy just out of college with a roommate.

What’s your passion? What is it you love to do more than anything?

[kelkel]

What’s your passion? What is it you love to do more than anything?

If Bik's is in by 9pm I'm going to go with "masturbation for the win, Alex."

[Capebuffalo]

If Bik's is in by 9pm I'm going to go with "masturbation for the win, Alex."

Shit that’s funny.

[ghettoboyd]

#3....
I fear my kids will resent me. I will spare you the stories but I promise you she will see all you have done for her. It's hard as fuck being a father. Being divorced they say its the kids that suffer most, but I disagree. They know I am there for them and love them as does their mother. It has gotten to the point I can't even enjoy my time with them without choking back tears the entire time. Something is always burning dads eyes, sun or allergies.

History will tell the story, only so much we can do. Just gotta do our best. It's hard to be the rock everyone pulls themself up on all the tim and then have to leave for a couple weeks. You learn to turn your emotions on and off like a switch and my gf wonders why I get so distant...

Love is pain.
Someone is getting a lot of love.

Thanks obs I needed to hear that brother you are a passionate man like me...I love that most about you man...

[Richard Head]

#3....
I fear my kids will resent me. I will spare you the stories but I promise you she will see all you have done for her. It's hard as fuck being a father. Being divorced they say its the kids that suffer most, but I disagree. They know I am there for them and love them as does their mother. It has gotten to the point I can't even enjoy my time with them without choking back tears the entire time. Something is always burning dads eyes, sun or allergies.

History will tell the story, only so much we can do. Just gotta do our best. It's hard to be the rock everyone pulls themself up on all the tim and then have to leave for a couple weeks. You learn to turn your emotions on and off like a switch and my gf wonders why I get so distant...

Love is pain.
Someone is getting a lot of love.

As an older father of two girls the best advice I can give is to be stable, by that I mean don't give up, and don't give in. In your heart you know what your trying to teach them is in their best interest, so never waiver. Along with that is keep talking to her, she is listening even though it doesn't seem like it.


My oldest is now 35 and for all that she claimed she wasn't listening every once in a while the exact same words will come out of her mouth, then I set there smiling like a cat eating shit.


Good luck

[MuscleScience]

Thanks obs I needed to hear that brother you are a passionate man like me...I love that most about you man...

She hears you GB, she is just 17 and needs to find it all out herself. You could say I was the same way, it wasn’t until fairly recently that I myself figured out what my Dad was talking about. Buying shit never made me happy for more than a few minutes. Now all I want is time with people and live out a happy life. She will come around, be supportive, if she stumbles offer guidence if she ask but let her fix her problems on her own. There is no better teacher in life than making a mistake, and working through it. You learn so much more. And sometimes like in my case, i truly found out I wasn’t as smart as I thought I was and reached out to my Dad for advice for the first time at 36 years old. And by god if he wasn’t right all along....

[bikeral]

What’s your passion? What is it you love to do more than anything?

I guess motorcycles. I have 3 Harleys. Good point. I need a road trip!

[bikeral]

If Bik's is in by 9pm I'm going to go with "masturbation for the win, Alex."

Ummmm. I love women but gave that a break..... Still on TRT. OK you got me.