Fuck Cancer

[kelkel]

Getting soft with age huh?

Touche'

[SampsonandDelilah]

@SampsonandDelilah, the universe may be trying to tell you something about pain, sleep and hunger management here!

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Hah!! A sign from the Ganja Gods!

Nice catch Cylon!

[charger69]

Ok, so now I have the fucking Director of the hospital telling my Dr how important or unimportant I am for scheduling my surgery to remove the shit. I can’t get a date.
It’s fucking more important to take the employees temperature every day when reporting to work than programming surgery. - I am referring to the Local CA order for businesses to operate that all employees must have their temperature taken before entering the facility.


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[< <Samson> >]

Ok, so now I have the fucking Director of the hospital telling my Dr how important or unimportant I am for scheduling my surgery to remove the shit. I can’t get a date.
It’s fucking more important to take the employees temperature every day when reporting to work than programming surgery. - I am referring to the Local CA order for businesses to operate that all employees must have their temperature taken before entering the facility.


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Now that is straight horse shit


Sucks to hear man

[Test Monsterone]

I check this thread almost every day to see how you guys are doing. Sampson, you are going through the grind right now, and like with training, I see you are making adjustments as needed. Your strong mentality is helping many of us, believe me. What excuse have I to be lazy, to be unhappy, to be angry, to not eat right...?

Charger, you are in my thoughts as well. The discipline you guys gained through training is helping you more than you realize. Through the pain, the discomfort, and the unknowns, you progress. You do the best you can.

[GirlyGymRat]

Ok, so now I have the fucking Director of the hospital telling my Dr how important or unimportant I am for scheduling my surgery to remove the shit. I can’t get a date.
It’s fucking more important to take the employees temperature every day when reporting to work than programming surgery. - I am referring to the Local CA order for businesses to operate that all employees must have their temperature taken before entering the facility.


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happening and it’s f bullshit!

States allow abortion surgeries bc that’s time sensitive

when is new cancer patient treatment or surgery NOT!

Annoying!!!

[GirlyGymRat]

S&D Praying for you!! Everyday!

[charger69]

I guess my ranting and raving got me my appointment. Now they want it fast....: I’m being operated on Monday.
I never wanted an operation so bad! LOL


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[Chark]

I guess my ranting and raving got me my appointment. Now they want it fast....: I’m being operated on Monday.
I never wanted an operation so bad! LOL

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That’s great news Charger!

[kelkel]

I guess my ranting and raving got me my appointment. Now they want it fast....: I’m being operated on Monday.
I never wanted an operation so bad! LOL


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Damn brother! Glad it worked out for you!

[almostgone]

I guess my ranting and raving got me my appointment. Now they want it fast....: I’m being operated on Monday.
I never wanted an operation so bad! LOL


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Good! They needed an ass chewing! Now you can get this thing done and move forward.

[XnavyHMCS]

I guess my ranting and raving got me my appointment. Now they want it fast....: I’m being operated on Monday.
I never wanted an operation so bad! LOL


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"The squeaky wheel gets the grease."

Good luck on the surgery bro!!!

[charger69]

I guess I need to tell wifey today. She knows nothing. I am learning more about myself.
I don’t want to tell her.:: I know I have to. I will give the clean version. I did the same thing with the infection. The fucking Dr is the one that gave the real version....
I don’t want anyone else worrying. I wish I was alone and didn’t have to tell or effect anyone else.
When I was in the hospital for my infection, I really didn’t want her to come and see me. Yes, I enjoyed her company, but I was causing an inconvenience for her. I know that she didn’t see it that way, but I did.


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[i_SLAM_cougars]

I guess I need to tell wifey today. She knows nothing. I am learning more about myself.
I don’t want to tell her.:: I know I have to. I will give the clean version. I did the same thing with the infection. The fucking Dr is the one that gave the real version....
I don’t want anyone else worrying. I wish I was alone and didn’t have to tell or effect anyone else.
When I was in the hospital for my infection, I really didn’t want her to come and see me. Yes, I enjoyed her company, but I was causing an inconvenience for her. I know that she didn’t see it that way, but I did.


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Charger this is starting to become awkward now. Like when you hang out with a chick like four times and you still don’t know what her name is. Except now the appropriate window of time to ask has passed. So you have to dig through her wallet while she’s asleep or something.

Do you have any paper work or something you can leave lying around by “accident”?

[charger69]

Charger this is starting to become awkward now. Like when you hang out with a chick like four times and you still don’t know what her name is. Except now the appropriate window of time to ask has passed. So you have to dig through her wallet while she’s asleep or something.

Do you have any paper work or something you can leave lying around by “accident”?

I passed on it yesterday. I need to do it today.
I know. I’m an asshole.


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[i_SLAM_cougars]

I passed on it yesterday. I need to do it today.
I know. I’m an asshole.


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Get it done big guy. Just let her know everything is under control, and you just wanted to cross all the “Ts” and dot all the “I”s, and get everything figured out before you bothered her with unnecessary worry and unknown variables

[SampsonandDelilah]

Crushed for you Charger. I get it though brother.
Time to just face it, there is no running anymore. She’ll worry, as she should. She’ll forgive you for waiting to tell her too, it’s perfectly understandable that you needed to process. You will need her buddy, and she’s going to need you. In the grand scheme of life, it’s a blip.

I’m knee deep in it brother. The treatment is awful. My body is past the point of anything I thought capable. The pain from the radiation is beyond description and the chemo has me sicker than a dog. I’m literally writing this message from the bathtub because it’s the only way I can get my nether region to cool down from the burning that radiation causes.

Hopefully the surgery will fix it and you won’t have to endure either chemo or radiation. Each on their own is a nightmare, combined....shit, you can’t even imagine.

Day by fucking day brother. I’ve been battling through some dark shit. I get it, I fucking get it. Between the fentanyl patches, morphine, Vicodin and gabapentin my body doesn’t know what’s happening to it and severely effects my mood. Throw in my ever present insomnia, the prednisone and the constant pain and I’m shocked I haven’t said fuck all of this and just quit. It’s because of my loved ones Charger, I owe them my best. I owe them this fight and I owe them being honest that I’m in the trenches.

You owe her this. Soon, you won’t be in control of anything. That’s maybe the toughest part, giving in to the fact that you are no longer in charge of your body. What you can control is your honesty, your attitude and whether or not you want to wallow in self pity or not. I tried it, it’s sadder than sitting in a tub on a Saturday morning typing on a forum while your kids are outside playing. I just have to remember that this doesn’t define me, it’s a blip on the radar and the sooner I attack this and get it off my plate, the better off I’ll be. Check your PM’s...let me know if you need anything. Time to get comfortable being uncomfortable and it starts with that conversation.

God bless

[SampsonandDelilah]

Charger this is starting to become awkward now. Like when you hang out with a chick like four times and you still don’t know what her name is. Except now the appropriate window of time to ask has passed. So you have to dig through her wallet while she’s asleep or something.

Do you have any paper work or something you can leave lying around by “accident”?

That made me LOL. ^^^^^^^

[SampsonandDelilah]

Been wanting to update, hopefully my reply to Charger gets everyone up to speed. It’s a fucking fistfight ladies and gents and I feel like Glass Joe vs Tyson. I’m taking my beating like a man and getting back up at the end of each round and doing my best to keep a smile on my face. It gets harder every day and I haven’t even hit bottom yet. It’s disheartening to say the least. Almost at the halfway mark though and that at least is empowering.

I feel like a shell of myself, but I know I have what it takes to rebuild. Thank you so much for the thoughts, the kindness and the positivity...means so much to know others care. This is a unique place for me to vent and regroup and find encouragement in a collective that has the warrior mindset and knows what it’s like to push back when things get hard.

One last rep, going to failure, pushing your body, embracing discomfort...it’s all so relatable.

It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done to this point in my 45 years and it’s just gonna get tougher. I can do it...I have no choice. There’s two little boys that still see me as a superhero and I’ll be damned if I let them down.


Have a great weekend!!

S&D

[charger69]

Been wanting to update, hopefully my reply to Charger gets everyone up to speed. It’s a fucking fistfight ladies and gents and I feel like Glass Joe vs Tyson. I’m taking my beating like a man and getting back up at the end of each round and doing my best to keep a smile on my face. It gets harder every day and I haven’t even hit bottom yet. It’s disheartening to say the least. Almost at the halfway mark though and that at least is empowering.

I feel like a shell of myself, but I know I have what it takes to rebuild. Thank you so much for the thoughts, the kindness and the positivity...means so much to know others care. This is a unique place for me to vent and regroup and find encouragement in a collective that has the warrior mindset and knows what it’s like to push back when things get hard.

One last rep, going to failure, pushing your body, embracing discomfort...it’s all so relatable.

It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done to this point in my 45 years and it’s just gonna get tougher. I can do it...I have no choice. There’s two little boys that still see me as a superhero and I’ll be damned if I let them down.


Have a great weekend!!

S&D

Hey man. I am sorry to hear what you are going through. Just think of it being like at the gym. You are breaking down to rebuild.
You need to get those last reps out and it hurts like hell, but you keep going. It will pay off in the long run although the next few days you feel like you have been put through a meat grinder.
Keep the faith..


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[charger69]

Crushed for you Charger. I get it though brother.
Time to just face it, there is no running anymore. She’ll worry, as she should. She’ll forgive you for waiting to tell her too, it’s perfectly understandable that you needed to process. You will need her buddy, and she’s going to need you. In the grand scheme of life, it’s a blip.

I’m knee deep in it brother. The treatment is awful. My body is past the point of anything I thought capable. The pain from the radiation is beyond description and the chemo has me sicker than a dog. I’m literally writing this message from the bathtub because it’s the only way I can get my nether region to cool down from the burning that radiation causes.

Hopefully the surgery will fix it and you won’t have to endure either chemo or radiation. Each on their own is a nightmare, combined....shit, you can’t even imagine.

Day by fucking day brother. I’ve been battling through some dark shit. I get it, I fucking get it. Between the fentanyl patches, morphine, Vicodin and gabapentin my body doesn’t know what’s happening to it and severely effects my mood. Throw in my ever present insomnia, the prednisone and the constant pain and I’m shocked I haven’t said fuck all of this and just quit. It’s because of my loved ones Charger, I owe them my best. I owe them this fight and I owe them being honest that I’m in the trenches.

You owe her this. Soon, you won’t be in control of anything. That’s maybe the toughest part, giving in to the fact that you are no longer in charge of your body. What you can control is your honesty, your attitude and whether or not you want to wallow in self pity or not. I tried it, it’s sadder than sitting in a tub on a Saturday morning typing on a forum while your kids are outside playing. I just have to remember that this doesn’t define me, it’s a blip on the radar and the sooner I attack this and get it off my plate, the better off I’ll be. Check your PM’s...let me know if you need anything. Time to get comfortable being uncomfortable and it starts with that conversation.

God bless

I told her. I did catch some shit about my promptness on disclosure.
I downplayed it and the fact it is inconclusive, Covid, etc. Things are on hold and then Go at 100 mph.

Getting tested for Covid today. They won’t operate without the test.


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[SampsonandDelilah]

I told her. I did catch some shit about my promptness on disclosure.
I downplayed it and the fact it is inconclusive, Covid, etc. Things are on hold and then Go at 100 mph.

Getting tested for Covid today. They won’t operate without the test.


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Proud of you bud. Now that monkey is off of your back and is no longer weighing you down. You’ll pass the covid test and you can get your fight started. The hardest part is waiting around twiddling your thumbs. You know what you need to do, just as I do. Now it’s just time to get after it. Step by step day by day.

Hate that your my brother in arms for this, but it picked the wrong motherfuckers...

[Proximal]

Been wanting to update, hopefully my reply to Charger gets everyone up to speed. It’s a fucking fistfight ladies and gents and I feel like Glass Joe vs Tyson. I’m taking my beating like a man and getting back up at the end of each round and doing my best to keep a smile on my face. It gets harder every day and I haven’t even hit bottom yet. It’s disheartening to say the least. Almost at the halfway mark though and that at least is empowering.

I feel like a shell of myself, but I know I have what it takes to rebuild. Thank you so much for the thoughts, the kindness and the positivity...means so much to know others care. This is a unique place for me to vent and regroup and find encouragement in a collective that has the warrior mindset and knows what it’s like to push back when things get hard.

One last rep, going to failure, pushing your body, embracing discomfort...it’s all so relatable.

It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done to this point in my 45 years and it’s just gonna get tougher. I can do it...I have no choice. There’s two little boys that still see me as a superhero and I’ll be damned if I let them down.


Have a great weekend!!

S&D

You’re damn right that you are young to beat this. You’re damned right that you will rebuild and your kids know a real super hero when they see one!

[SampsonandDelilah]

Thank you Prox. My man....

[GirlyGymRat]

Thx for updates gents!

Charger...Glad u got straight with wife!! Sending prayers your way!!!


S&D. Fight. Fight. Keep f fighting!! Sending prayers for strength and healing 3 times daily. Sending another set for your wife and kids.

[charger69]

Proud of you bud. Now that monkey is off of your back and is no longer weighing you down. You’ll pass the covid test and you can get your fight started. The hardest part is waiting around twiddling your thumbs. You know what you need to do, just as I do. Now it’s just time to get after it. Step by step day by day.

Hate that your my brother in arms for this, but it picked the wrong motherfuckers...

You make this so much easier. The things that go through your head, the decisions that you have to make, etc. You are such a positive mother fucker, it’s unbelievable! You keep it up!
You have been more helpful than you know!


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[SampsonandDelilah]

You make this so much easier. The things that go through your head, the decisions that you have to make, etc. You are such a positive mother fucker, it’s unbelievable! You keep it up!
You have been more helpful than you know!


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Thanks brother! You have to get through the darkness to see the light. It’s not easy staying positive, between the chemo and radiation it’s starting to feel like I’m being tortured. Everything below my waistline is on fire. Radiation therapy is no joke and I’m shocked by the impact it has on my quality of life.

I have zero control at this point. The only thing I can control is my attitude. I can sit here and feel sorry for myself, mope, sulk and suffer in silence...or I can laugh, smile and try and put on my best face and try and maintain my fucking dignity. I chose the latter and I know you will too Charger. I’m not letting cancer win.

Fuck you cancer. Stay strong and stay positive Charger. We got this...

[charger69]

I am Covid free!! Next stop, the operating table.
I need to control myself. I usually never bark at anyone. I just did and I ask myself, “ what the fuck are you doing, thats not who you are”.
Oh well, I hope he takes it well. LOL


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[Chark]

Hey Sampson/Charger,

How you guys doin?

[< <Samson> >]

Hey Sampson/Charger,

How you guys doin?

I been restraining myself from asking a bit

[charger69]

I been restraining myself from asking a bit

I’m fine. I go in to get my other half of the thyroid removed on Thursday.
Dr has me feeling good about this....:: well, as good as I can. LOL
He may be lying to me, but I feel positive so I don’t dwell on it. I am trying to focus on the recovery and getting back on stage.
I thought 2020 was going to be me turning the corner. I did, but I was expecting something else around the corner..... not Cancer, Covid, Floyd, etc.

Maybe I can turn into the $6M man. Better, faster, stronger. LOL
I can be the expiremental specimen for bodybuilding without a thyroid.

To be truthful, I do not know much about the radioactive iodine. I need to figure out about any restrictions with AAS.

PS: Don’t refrain from asking. You guys keep me sane.


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[< <Samson> >]

I tend to not ask questions, I don’t want answers to

This ^ real life feeling mortal shit is what scares me the most - so, I try to look the other way as much as possible

[charger69]

I tend to not ask questions, I don’t want answers to

This ^ real life feeling mortal shit is what scares me the most - so, I try to look the other way as much as possible

That’s two of us. Dr said It would be alright, no more questions asked. LOL
If he lied to me, he actually let me live life peaceful a little longer. Lol


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[charger69]

First hurdle passed.::: I am Covid free!!!!!
I wasn’t sure because I started going to a gym that has no face covering requirement or social distancing.
Operating table tomorrow.


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[The road]

Charger, Maybe if you did shit right the first time you wouldnt be getting surgery again!

Lazy half ass mfer!

[charger69]

Charger, Maybe if you did shit right the first time you wouldnt be getting surgery again!

Lazy half ass mfer!

It looks like you shit too much- you tweeker. LOL


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[charger69]

I should be cancer free at this point. They are going to “light me up” in about 6-8 weeks with radioactive iodine.
I really want to go to Mexico to see when I cross back to the US if the radiation detectors actually work. I will be giving off radiation for a couple of days. LOL


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[i_SLAM_cougars]

I should be cancer free at this point. They are going to “light me up” in about 6-8 weeks with radioactive iodine.
I really want to go to Mexico to see when I cross back to the US if the radiation detectors actually work. I will be giving off radiation for a couple of days. LOL


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Good to hear old timer

[Richard Head]

Just wanted to say Happy Fathers Day to you both. Keep marching brothers, that all you can do.

[The road]

Just wanted to say Happy Fathers Day to you both. Keep marching brothers, that all you can do.

Happy fathers day to you too Rich