Big "T"s Cylce.......

**Huge Presser** · 07-19-2003, 12:56 PM

Wow... sorry bro. I hope things work out, or at least well enough for you to have custody of your kids most of the time. Best of luck.

HP

**quez82** · 07-19-2003, 12:57 PM

Originally Posted by sigrabbit

Sorry to hear that BT. I wish you the best bro.

Take care of your personal life... everything will get better with time... I'm sorry its all happening at once...even at all...wish you the best of luck..

**Juggernaut** · 07-19-2003, 07:15 PM

Big Texan, bro I am really, really sorry to read that concerning you and the wife. I had thought you guys had pasted the really rocky point from your past posts, sorry it wasn’t the case. Relationships are a bitch, no doubt, but if both parties aren’t willing to work at it it’s not going to work but I’m sure you already knew that. I feel for you my man I’m in the same boat as you and I’ve been married for 16 years. I know you have plenty of friends both on this board and off but if you need to talk or even rant you pm me anytime.

Jugg

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-19-2003, 09:24 PM

Guy's at times I feel like a little bitch throwing all my personal prolems out here on this board, but every single one of ya'll are great brothers and siters. A guy could never ask for better friends. Sadly to say I don't have to many of those anymore here in the real world do to the wife (soon to be ex-wife). You guys are my support through all this crap. I might not get to post as much on here as I deal with this, but be assured I will be back soon. I will try to update my diary as my cycle is coming to an end. I can barely eat anymore my stomach is in knots with stress. I'm actually bent over right now with my stomach having severe pains. Not sure if I'm sick or just all the pressure I'm under right now. Again, thank you all of you, Jugg I hope you a speedy recovery and guys, don't worry aout me too much, even though I feel lost and empty right now I'm like a cocroach...... I survive.....

**quez82** · 07-19-2003, 10:56 PM

Originally Posted by BIG TEXAN

Guy's at times I feel like a little bitch throwing all my personal prolems out here on this board, but every single one of ya'll are great brothers and siters. A guy could never ask for better friends. Sadly to say I don't have to many of those anymore here in the real world do to the wife (soon to be ex-wife). You guys are my support through all this crap. I might not get to post as much on here as I deal with this, but be assured I will be back soon. I will try to update my diary as my cycle is coming to an end. I can barely eat anymore my stomach is in knots with stress. I'm actually bent over right now with my stomach having severe pains. Not sure if I'm sick or just all the pressure I'm under right now. Again, thank you all of you, Jugg I hope you a speedy recovery and guys, don't worry aout me too much, even though I feel lost and empty right now I'm like a cocroach...... I survive.....

Just remember you've been an inspiration to many of us...Things might get you down but with all of us as friends i'm sure we can help bring you back up on your feet in no time... take care

**Needtobeswoledup** · 07-19-2003, 11:18 PM

Hey bro sorry to hear things aren't working out so good with your personal life. If there's anything I can do to help you out let me know. I go out quite a bit, usually to farwest dancing(dont know if you like that shit) or the river walk or 6th street, your more than welcome to come along might take your mind off stuff. Hope everything goes well for you.

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-21-2003, 07:06 AM

Ok, I did another 200mg test, 200mg eq, and 75mg fina in my right quad today. Haven't been to the gym in a few days. I finally getto see the doc today about my stomach. I can barely eat, actually just the thought of food makes it hurt worse, but I forcing it down pain and all. I'll keep ya'll posted on what the hell is wrong with my stomach.

**ripsid** · 07-21-2003, 07:17 AM

Big bro check your pm...

SID!

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-21-2003, 07:18 AM

Gotcha ripsid! Check yours..... and thank you.

**ColdSore** · 07-21-2003, 04:13 PM

Keep your head up Big T...i cant even begin to think what that has to feel like, i hope everything comes out ok in the long run...This is just one of those tough times in life that mold a person into who they really are...you and your cycle diary have been very inspirational to me, and youve been more than helpful in figuring out my diet. Best of luck to ya Big T

**BigGreen** · 07-21-2003, 10:04 PM

Wow, i've been away for a little bit (off and on with no time to really hit the Members' Cycle Results section...as you can tell from my journal) and hadn't had time to come on in here for a while. You must be one resilient bastard for sure. A single bad day often affects my gym performance (and all too often my even getting there) more than I'd like; i can only imagine the dedication and will you must be mustering to keep up a steady regimen. Now I must go...i'll read through the entirety of what I've missed tomorrow and find something to pick apart or otherwise poke fun at...there must be something.

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-22-2003, 06:25 AM

Ok, BG.... I'll be waiting.

Well I'm feeling pretty damn good now that I have my new best friend with me.... Mr.Vicodin. I stayed home again yesterday and slept. This morning I did another 75mg of fina in my left pec. I may go to the gym tonight to do some LITE lifting. All depends on how I feel when I get home today.

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-23-2003, 06:46 AM

Ok, another 75mg fina in my right bi.... painless as usual. I will be goingtothe gym tonight for legs and chest. I'm not sure where my weight is at right now, but my abs are showing through quite nicely. The pain killers are making me pretty drowzy but I'm sure I can lay off of them just long enough to get a workout done.

**BIG R** · 07-23-2003, 09:10 AM

Big T,

What pain killers are you taking? I are you glad about the abs? I know that they made me very happy....it like seeing the result from all of the dieting.
R

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-23-2003, 09:48 AM

Originally Posted by BIG R

Big T,

What pain killers are you taking? I are you glad about the abs? I know that they made me very happy....it like seeing the result from all of the dieting.
R

I'm taking vicodin/codine for my kidney stone

S.O.B. hurts like hell. As for my abs showing through, hell yeah I'm happy....I almost forgot that I had 'em under all that "skin" I'm in denial about calling it fat...

I still can't see my bottom abs, just the top 4 unless I flex just right than you can see the 6 with almost the start of an 8 pack!!! Hell yeah. I may never want to bulk again in fear of losing them.

I have just under a year to pack on all the muscle I can, than I'll be hitting you up fpr advice on getting into contest ready shape.

**BIG R** · 07-23-2003, 03:13 PM

If you have an 8pack you would be lucky.....not too many people have those. You Lucky Bastard!

R

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-23-2003, 09:30 PM

I don't have it yet, but I'm working on it. My abs look weird, they are symmetrical, they are uneven looking. Ya know how most people's as are straight across, well mine aren't ..... it's weird looking.

**FCECC2** · 07-23-2003, 10:20 PM

damn 456 post and i have not reply to it yet...
bump

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-24-2003, 08:40 AM

Well this morning I did another 200mg test, my last 200mg eq, and another 75mg fina in my left quad. I also noticed a slight lump under my right nipple. I believe it to be from the fina, I can't find any damn bromo, I've been told to quit the fina..... damn my luck. I'm looking on the net now for sme bromo so if I can find some I might not have to quit my cycle just yet. If I have to I'll just jump on my clomid and pray for the best. I will say do to reasons that are beyond my control, this cycle has sucked ass, not from the gear either. Just all the shitty luck I've been having during it.

**BigGreen** · 07-24-2003, 09:27 AM

Wow, this is like some cruel joke (Santa Anna's Revenge, perhaps??). I think Oxford will be contacting you shortly for a photograph so that they might attach it to "Murphy's Law" in their dictionary (unabridged version with pop terms of course).

**BIG R** · 07-24-2003, 09:56 AM

Big Tex,

Do you have Nolvadex ? It might help along with you Clomid action got stop that gyno. Let me know if I can help.
You think that you have bad luck? There was a time that I was trying out Vet. sust and was left with such a HUGE knot that was red hot and swollen I could barely walk. Could not sit very well on one cheek and NOT do leg press or squat at all. This lasted for almost 2 weeks. Test 400 taken alone will do the same thing to me. I have learned the hard way also.
Hey PM me if you need some help on the Nolvadex.

R

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-25-2003, 06:33 AM

July 25, 2003
Another 75mg in my left bicep and I'm stoked to get back in the gym tonight. I'm just gonna do a light and quick legs/ chest workout. Doc said I can workout as long as I don't go to heavy and cause too much of a strain on my abdominal area. So more to come guys.... cause I'm back with a vengeance!

**ripsid** · 07-25-2003, 07:48 AM

Bro, I tell you what man when you look back at all you've had to deal with during this cycle you're going see how much you've grown...not so much because of the gear, but because of all the adversity you overcome! Don't get me wrong I hope get to 290! but I think you'll be a better man from it! I they said to us during training "GET YOUR ASS BACK IN THERE MAGGET!" Kick some ass brother!

SID!

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-25-2003, 08:59 AM

Sir! Yes sir!!!

Yeah, I have changed alot for the better during the past few months. All I can say is there will always be a place at my table for any of ya'll. If it's ever possible I'd like to somehow throw a get together for a bunch of ya'll. Anyways back to the weight room and I'm already getting everything ready for my next cycle so when this one is dead be looking for the next cycle to start up a few months afterwards. ripsid.... man I swear, you ever need anything, just let me know cause you've helped me out more than you realize.... you're a good man rip, just wanted to say that.

**ripsid** · 07-25-2003, 09:24 AM

I got your back bro! We all share that AR blood in our veins and maybe it's me being Italian, but blood is thick! And your a bro! Hell, we've chewed alot of the same dirt and says alot!
>>>I still don't know any sources so ...

!

What do you plan on running next? I'm very interested in that...I know I wanted to start my cycle next week, but 1 I'm waiting on some supps, and 2 I have to go to Chile on the 9th! F*K! On top of that shit, the 9th is my daughters Birthday party! WTF! They F*K me all the GD time here!
Stay strong my brother! And get your big ass in the gym!

SID!

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-25-2003, 09:36 AM

Sorry to hear about ya missing your daughters b-day. My next cycle will be one of the following.

1)
Week 1-12 Test Prop 100mg ED
Week 1-8 Fina 100mg ED
Week 8-13 Winni 50mg ED
Nolva 20mg Ed throughout

2)
Week 1-4
Test Prop 100mg ED or EOD
Week 1-20
Test Cyp 750mg
Eq 600mg
Week 10-20
Fina 75-100mg ED
Week 17-22
Winni 50mg Ed

Hcg 500iu every Mon/Tues
Nolva 20mg Ed throughout
Clomid 300/100/50

With d-bol bridge of 10mg every morning for 6-8 weeks following this one.

**sigrabbit** · 07-25-2003, 09:40 AM

I like your choices for upcoming cycles. I am considering a winter cycle like your number 2.

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-25-2003, 09:56 AM

Well money will most likely play a deciding factor on which cycle I run.

Either one looks good so I won't be dissapointed either way. Eventually I will run both at some point anyways.

**NotVinDiesel** · 07-25-2003, 12:54 PM

Hey, I do a lot more reading on this site than posting (as to avoid asking previously asked questions and getting the "newbie" flame,) and I have followed this diary throughout. In reading this and other threads, I have gone from a guy who had trouble looking at "legal" steroids , to handling the research and planning of not only my own, but two friends AAS cycles (now if my source would just get his azz back in town!)

Anyway, I just wanted to say this diary has been integral in my education and thanks for staying on top of your progress and posting for us all!

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-25-2003, 01:02 PM

Not a problem... that's what I did this for. Keep reading cause I'm going to keep up with my post sysle therapy along with post cycle workouts and diet. I'm gonna start a new thread involving clean dieting so newbies can get an idea of what their eating habits should look like.

**Austex** · 07-26-2003, 01:06 AM

I like the #2 cycle. If you use prop, take daily injections. I have heard that the half life is up to 2 days, and I've also heard that it can last only 18-24 hours. The last thing you want is your blood levels to be uneven. And as cheap as prop is, why risk it? Since you're running cyp at the same time, you could take 50 mg prop/day which would put you at...1100 mg test/wk. Just my 2 cents.

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-28-2003, 08:13 AM

Well do to some miss calculations and spilling some this morning, I did my last 200mg of test today. along with 75mg of fina in my right calve. I will be getting back in the gym today and will update on weight and all. Also I hope to have some pics up soon. Wish me luck that lifting won't hurt my stomach... I'm off the pain killers for now and there's little to no pain so I'm gonna hit it today, just not to hard.

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-28-2003, 09:04 PM

Well I did back tonight and decided to go somewhat lite since it's my first day nack in a couple weeks. Anyways I did deads and got up tp 500 for 6 reps and decided to end it there. Moved onto lat pulls, cable rows and bent over barbell rows. My weight is an even 240. Hell I thought I would have lost some weight but I have lost more bf. Anyways I have shoulders tomorrow and am really looking forward to it. Well goodnight

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-29-2003, 06:32 AM

Well did another 75mg of fina in my left calve this morning. I think I hit a nerve because as soon as I pushed the pin in my foot went to sleep. I pulled it out and restuck myself and feeling came back so I'm not worried.

I have shoulders tonight and will post more as it happens.

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-30-2003, 06:37 AM

Ok, weights at 241, bf...??? My abs are starting tio show through a bit more. I did another 75mg fina in my right quad this morning. I had shoulders last night and there sore as hell today.
Military press on smith machine
set 1 - 195 for 12
set 2 - 245 for 10
set 3 - 265 for 8
set 4 - 285 for 8
I didn't want to go to heavy especially since I've been out of the gym for almost 2 weeks.
Military press Hammer strength machine
set 1 - 230 for 10
set 2 - 250 for 8
set 3 - 270 for 6
set 4 - 320 for 5 (had some help on the fifth rep)
Reverse pec dec
set 1 - 150 for 8
set 2 - 160 for 8
set 3 - 170 for 8
set 4 - 180 for 8
shrugs on smith machine
set 1 - 245 for 12
set 2 - 265 for 10
set 3 - 285 for 10
set 4 - 315 for 8
I did some other lifts with dumbels but I have to go to a meeting right quick. I'll post more later, I have legs tonight so we'll see how that goes.

**ripsid** · 07-30-2003, 06:48 AM

Originally Posted by BIG TEXAN

Ok, weights at 241, bf...??? My abs are starting tio show through a bit more. I did another 75mg fina in my right quad this morning. I had shoulders last night and there sore as hell today.
Military press on smith machine
set 1 - 195 for 12
set 2 - 245 for 10
set 3 - 265 for 8
set 4 - 285 for 8
I didn't want to go to heavy especially since I've been out of the gym for almost 2 weeks.
Military press Hammer strength machine
set 1 - 230 for 10
set 2 - 250 for 8
set 3 - 270 for 6
set 4 - 320 for 5 (had some help on the fifth rep)
Reverse pec dec
set 1 - 150 for 8
set 2 - 160 for 8
set 3 - 170 for 8
set 4 - 180 for 8
shrugs on smith machine
set 1 - 245 for 12
set 2 - 265 for 10
set 3 - 285 for 10
set 4 - 315 for 8
I did some other lifts with dumbels but I have to go to a meeting right quick. I'll post more later, I have legs tonight so we'll see how that goes.

'bout time you started lifting again you lazy beaaach!

Bro, have to say I'm pretty jealous about the weight you throw around! Before I tore up myshoulder last year, I was doing reps of 5 with 225 on seated military...now, well I'm a Dumbell Whore! Shit!
SID

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-30-2003, 07:07 AM

Originally Posted by ripsid

now, well I'm a Dumbell Whore! Shit!
SID

Ahhhhh..... yes. I know the type, see we make dumbell whores like yourself rack our weights for us.

Don't fret it bro.... in a matter of weeks you'll be thowing the weights around like nothing as well.

**ColdSore** · 07-30-2003, 10:58 AM

I like my dumbells...damnit...

Impressive lifts Big T, how much longer do you have to go in this cycle.

Btw...congrats on you and your wifes night on the town the other night...sounds like things went extremely well...and flowers, with a singing telegram the next day...your an overgrown casinova...way to go bro

***BIG TEXAN*** · 07-30-2003, 11:33 AM

casinova....hahahaha!

Thanks coldstone, I have roughly 3-4 weeks left of fina and than I'm starting pct. I damn near gave in to temptation and bought some prop to do for another 8 weeks. But it's time for it to come to an end and give my body some time off gear. I'll be back on in 12-16 weeks depending on my bloodwork.

**ripsid** · 07-30-2003, 11:44 AM

Originally Posted by BIG TEXAN

casinova....hahahaha!

Thanks coldstone, I have roughly 3-4 weeks left of fina and than I'm starting pct. I damn near gave in to temptation and bought some prop to do for another 8 weeks. But it's time for it to come to an end and give my body some time off gear. I'll be back on in 12-16 weeks depending on my bloodwork.

Hopefully after the blood work they won't find out you're pregnant! sissy! throw some real weight around!

!

Serious now, what part of the cycle so far as far as supps go, do you think you felt the most gains or effects happened? You're throwing weight around like a f'n bull brother and even though it's been a tough one, you've still benefited from it.

SID